The number of students admitted to school is making its way up. Yeah, I still have a job for the next year.

Wonder when will my career take off ?

There is a saying that goes somewhere along the line of, "Lightning never strikes twice in the same place". That's BS. In my case, a weird sense of deja vu occurred yesterday.

Macmek fell.

Although I didn't find the corpse, traces of fresh blood was found directly at the foot of the flat. Putting 2 and 2 together, we came to that conclusion. She has never been missing for so long. Usually, when my ma wakes up and put fresh biscuits, she would rush out from where ever she was to follow her mummy around.

I've been in this position before but the pain always cuts deep every single time. And why does it always have to be the sweet ones who goes first ?

Just the other day, my ma commented that if she passed on, Macmek would not be able to cope with the loss as compared to the others. Who's to know, she's the one who goes first ?

The last time I saw her alive was pre-dawn when I went to use the toilet. She was just sitting by the laundry basket, looking out of the kitchen window. I asked her, why she was up so early, but she didn't make any indications that she heard me. Usually, she would be asking me to open my ma's bedroom door so that she can sleep in. I didn't think there was anything odd about it. When I woke up at 9, I thought I saw her sitting in the living room chair, waiting for my ma to wake up. I then switched on the tv and left my room door ajar.

10 mins to 10, my ma came by and closed the door. A while later she asked if Macmek was in my room. And I said no. We searched everywhere in the house, but she didn't appear. That's when Ma suspected something was wrong. We looked out the windows but we didn't see anything unlike the time with Ayang.

But I have that bad feeling that won't go away. So anyway, I made a trip downstairs and that's when it was confirmed.

Such a sweet, happy soul, gone. I didn't even get to kiss her goodbye. Body dumped in the bin like any other rubbish. I guess I needed to see whatever to reconcile the fact that she is indeed gone.

Hey people.

Found out that I don't have to hand in any assignments next week. All thanks to Kavitha. Such a sweetheart. Hehe ... Sorry if I'd panicked you last evening ! All the same, no time to slack off. I don't wanna panic again, come the week of assignment due dates ! *phew*

My ma's going to JB today. To attend a relative's wedding. Not her side of the family but my dad's and dad's not even accompanying her ! He had just came back from his night shift so most prolly, he'd be home sleeping it off. Or not. Anyway, I had to break a movie date with Laine. I really feel terrible, dear. I wish I can get my sis to house sit the cats but she practically ignored my cry for help. *sheesh* That's blood sisters for you !

House sit my cats ? Well, yeah, dad might let them go. As in put them back in the void deck. I won't be able to handle that trauma. So just for my ma, I am forsaking my social life, yet again. On the other hand, I can get to do my research on my assignments. Yeah, yeah .... I keep harping on them, but really, you guys can't imagine how freaked out I am by the idea of school. Super freaked out !

Came by earlier today. I wanted to post on the movies I wanna watch. Then I figured, what a lame-o topic. So now I am fresh out of ideas.

Just finished lunch. It was good. I had chicken in soya sauce, with cabbage mixed veg and to top off, curry gravy. It was good ! *rubs tummy*

Hey people, I have no plans for the weekend. Wanna meet up or something ? I know, I know .... kinda last minute but if you can squeeze me in somewhere. Anybody ? Somebody ?

Oh, well .... forget it. I am staying home to get started on my assignments. 3 weeks back to back dues. Have fun you guys. At least for those who are spending time out. For those like me, hmmmm .... Have fun anyways !

My future cell

The Motorola A760

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I am so sold.

Being a public holiday and all, I'm gonna divulge a little background tale of yours truly. Bear with me.

Moniker ? black_sherbet@wtf.com (well ... duh !)

Real moniker ..... Oh .... ! I go by Helena, pretty much most of the time.

Favourite Track ? Gosh .... Way too many ! But I would say "Sunrise" by Simply Red. Simple really, the song almost always makes me feel hot and sexy even at my mostest dowdy moments !

Favourite thing to do ? This is a no brainner. Read. Anytime, anywhere, anything.

Most embarrassing moment ? I wish I can say I remember, but as with all the nasty bits in you life, you conveniently forget them !

Sunshine, snow or rain ? Rain. Definitely. Makes me get in touch with my emotional side.

Favourite shades ? Lilac. I am only slightly sexually repressed/deprived.

Favourite item ? My "smelly" pillow. It's comforting. Absolutely !

Cartoons / Kiddie Shows ? Hi-5 ! Come on, 1, 2, 3, 4, Hi-5 ....

Finally, love of your life ? At this moment ? My mother and my 5 kucing setan. Sorry to disappoint all of you, especially those expecting a scandalous answer. *winks*

Happy Holidays y'all !!!!!

~xxxxx~

As I've told my 2 bestest friends (whom I'm chatting with right now on MSN) in the whole wide world (www, geddit ?), I am in serious need of a new machine. Machine being a PC. Yeah, I need it so much, my course passing marks depends on it. Like all of it !!!!!

My browser windows kept hanging in time, space and continuum every 5 minutes after I opened them. How the fark am I supposed to do my farking research for my farking assignments due farking next week ????

*breathes in and out slowly*

I am so farking bursting a blood vessel ! And then, where will I be ? Farking back to my first Patho assignment, that's where. Farking H - E - L - L !!!!

*breathes in and out slowly, at a faster rate*

I am so farking failing my course. I knew it ! My 2K odd bucks will finally say its goodbyes from the drainage hole. I am so farken screwed. So very screwed. F - A - R - K !!!!!!!!!

*screws breathing slowly*

People. Please do pray for me. My time is near. To say goodbye. To something I held close for 4 (farken) years. My (farken) PC is going to where all (farken) PCs go to. Some place better than in my (farken) room.

*AAAAAAAARRRRRGGGHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!*

*tears out hair*

I simply love sharpened pencils. And I mean this literally. Yesterday, I brought my new, big red sharpener to work because of all the unsharpened pencils lying around on my table. I got to work and sharpened 8 or 9 pencils. Making them all sharp and pointy. I smelled the shavings ....... ummmmm ....... wood scent. I love it !

Point of this post ?

Just one of my little quirks.

Sometimes I just feel like this kitty cat.

*sighs*

Pissed off is a mild term to describe what I was feeling yesterday. It was such a hurtful experience to be let down by the very people you think you can trust. That is just at work. Home front, that's another area that got me cheesed off. My life seemed to be in a f***ed up mess at this mo. *I wanna get away I wanna fly away yeah yeah* Yeah, right .....

Accompanied Eileen to WestMall yesterday. She wanted to trade in her current cellphone to the new Sony Ericsson. Was it T610 ? Anyway, when we left work, we sorta like sneaked out coz official knock off time is 5.30 pm. But yesterday, we "siamed" at 5.15pm. Took a long circuitous route to the staircase to avoid Jessica sitting at the lift lobby and then guess who saw us sneaked out ? The very person we tried to avoid ! Har .... a pair of snoops are we !!!

The weather threatened to rain but we couldn't care less so we quickly walked to the bus stop. Saw the bus we wanted to take approaching the traffic light but we still maintained our current speed. Reached the bus stop together (bus and us). Along the way, it poured ! Rather heavily to boot ! We were just commenting we should have brought the brollies but as soon as we reached out destination the rain stopped. Thinking it was our lucky evening, we made our way to the M1 shop. Queue wasn't as long as the weekend (according to Eileen), so another lucky sign, we thought. She queued while I went browsing the mall. Found the community library there and decided to spend the rest of my waiting time there.

Was looking through my 3rd book when I received a text from Eileen. Made my way back to the shop. Waited another 10 mins or so before Eileen was called. Sat down and went about the business. She asked for the red T610 but sold out ! The nice man (NM) said he will try the other M1 shops. After searching on the computer system, he said there is a last red T610 somewhere. Said he will try giving them a ring. So we sat down and waited for the NM and Eileen chose a number. After waiting for some time, NM came back and said that all the red phones are gone. :((( So asked if she could get the display phone but NM said it's a dummy (duh !?!). So she decided to have a look at the other 2 colcours. Discussed about which colour she wanted (blue or silver), I'd go for the blue because I'm biased. She said she preferred the silver but after some time deliberating, she decided for the blue. Then she handed over her current phone and the NM fiddled with it. We were still trying to see the pros and cons of the blue. Looked slimmer, said Eileen. I said it was just an optical illusion. So anyway, the NM interrupted our debate and asked Eileen for the security code of her phone. She said she's not sure, try the default. NM said he tried but cannot crack. Eileen tried different combi, still couldn't crack it. Even called her hubby, zilch. Zero. Nada.

So we left the shop without me seeing E's new phone ! The disappointment. Thought I could coerced her to take the very first photo from the phone of my face. Just not meant to buy the phone. Arrgghhh .... Poor dear !

Mass circumcision for racial harmony ?

KUALA LUMPUR - Given the growing popularity of circumcision among non-Muslim minorities, Malaysia is considering using mass circumcision ceremonies to promote racial harmony.

Cicumcision is a rite of passage for young Muslim boys, while for minority groups, it's seen as a good hygiene practice.

Dr Adbul Hamid Othman, the prime minister's religious adviser, has suggested that the ritual can bring Malaysians together and he wants to see a nationwide circumcision ceremony organised.

In Malaysia it is common for the ceremony to become an event with dozens, or even hundreds of boys being circumcised together, BBC Online reported yesterday.

The governement has been exploring ways of stopping the different groups from drifting apart, including the introduction of a national service scheme which begins in February.

Sounds like a plausible idea. Do you think there will be any takers for this mass circumcision ? No, do you even think this (hair-brain) idea would even take off ?????

I suppose I can say I saw this coming. I can even claim with a degree of certainty that I had expected it to turn out this way. I guess, I would be disappointed IF it didn't culminate to this event.

Today's post : I am just gonna write and ramble on how E V I L one's work place can get.

I feel upset, a little angry and very much like rejected goods. Defective item, unusable at all. Dumped like a bag of hot shit. Pardon me if you find my language coarse. I can't be fucking bothered to fucking censor it today. So fucking sorry.

Oh, someone who has outlive his usefulness should be fucking shot. Fucking right ! I felt like that. Like I have been sucked dried of all use and spat out. Kinda like eating sugarcane. Bite, chew, suck, spat.

I am so gonna fucking stay in my room and sulk. Don't bother with the soothing words. I feel fucking used. Fuck them all !

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FUCKASS !

Kisses and caresses ....

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


What kind of kiss are you?
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Oh btw, if you have the chance, try to watch Sunshine. Arts Central screened it last night but I only caught it after an hour or so after the movie started. Movie was 3 hours long. And sad to say, I didn't manage to watch until the end (had to sleep, need to work today). Damn good movie, but then, I'm biased. It's a Ralph Fiennes vehicle and I must say, he's a damn good actor (aside from the biasness, it's the truth) ! And I would say he's been both the victim and torturer in movies involving the second world war. He was the victim in this movie and was the aggressor in Schindler's List. Which is by the way, a really excellent movie !

Save A Prayer ~ Duran Duran

Nope, I'm not gonna copy the lyrics of the above song.

If you are a true blue Gold 90.5 FM fan, chances are, you would have heard my singing for the above song at the 9.30 am Karaoke Classic hour. Har har .... For those of you secretly sniggering at my croaky voice, imagine the surprise if you are put on the spot. Well, yeah I'd expected the singing bit. What I didn't expect was my SMS was picked for the chosen song of the hour. Man, what a surprise ! Nice surprise, though.

Hope nothing happens later to screw up my day. Considering the fact that I got a "marriage proposal" this morning ! Thanks Hamish for that spurt of encouragement ! Hehe ....

Kinda quiet day for me. I was just meddling with some things here. Wonder if I can add my MSN Messenger status link here. Does anybody know if there is any such a code for MSN ?

Much appreciated !

Hey people, finally Shaheeda has decided to own her own weblog. Just surf by here. Go by and make her write !

Shaheeda's online now. Poor dear took day off because her throat's getting some nasties that can't be shaken off easily. Hehe .... I was coughing my lungs out just yesterday.

I'm hungry. Was too sleepy to get food in the morning so have to tie up the stomach, curb the appetite and all that crap. But seriously, I need to lose weight (or water as some people might put it succinctly !). I am at my worst today. I looked like a bag lady. Gosh, some days are better without the things called mirrors. I just want to lay my head and drift off to slumberland.

*yawnz*

Seriously. I want to go to bed. I mean N O W !

I lead a very sad existence. Right now I'm connected to both MSN Messenger and ICQ and none of the contacts I wish to speak to are online. Sad is too good a word to use.

Pathetic is more appropriate.

As you can see, my second entry and the it's only half way through Manic Monday.

Yupz, too much time, too little motivation. Checked my bank balance earlier. Yupz, bonus and salary came in early. Damn, how do I keep my paws off all those sweet $$$ ???

Given the state of my mind at the moment, I just want to spend, spend, spend ! *lolz*

So anyway, I need ideas. I need help to find me a nice gift for the office gift exchange for under $ 10. Slightly more is fine. And no, please don't suggest The Body Shop's gift. I think that's the most convenient gift for unimaginative, possibly forced to celebrate this occasion individual. Some flair, people. And of course a little originality and authenticity.

MASTERMIND
(Submissive Introvert Abstract Thinker )


Helena

Like just 8% of the population you are a MASTERMIND (SIAT). You can be silent and withdrawn, but behind your reserved exterior lies an active mind that allows you to analyze situations and come up with creative, unexpected solutions. Normal people call this "scheming." Don't learn German.

Anyway, your sense of style and originality are your strengths, and people will respect your judgment once they get to know you. If you learn to be a little more personable, you could be a great leader--you've definitely got the "vision" thing down. Just make sure all the plotting you do behind those eyes of yours is healthy.

Famous masterminds in television: Dr. Claw, The Scarecrow and Mrs. King, Montgomery Burns.

Take the test.

I LOVE LOVE ACTUALLY !!!!!

The movie makes me feel all gooey and sappy inside ! I'd even want my non-existant phantom lover "boyfriend" !!!!

Went to watch the movie with Elaine, Fie and Sha. We basically spent the better part of the afternoon, evening and night together. I really miss my secondary school days. Those days when you can still dream the impossible. Trudging down a road you are unsure of the destination. The mistakes you made were so easily forgivable. I want those days back !!!

I realised how much we think (assume) we know someone when in actuality we know nothing of them at all. Why are we all so afraid to let people in ? Why do we ever mask our true feelings and face each day with a facade ? Why ? Why ?

Why can't we all love and be loved ????

*sighs*

You guys are gonna get this news first hand.

Samuel dear is going to be featured on the Guiness Book of World Records. His main act (of stupidity ?) is making the loudest tongue clicking sound. Okay you guys be the judge.

So Samuel, don't say I don't think of gratitude, okay. I am taking out a post on your exploits in capital L.

Oh, yeah, if you want the publicity for your upcoming book, just tell me. I'll take out another post specially for your new book. Autograph signing dates can also be included in ! It's free of charge (umm ... we'll negotiate that.) !

I wish I can write longer today. You know another BS session for the people out there but at this very moment in time, I am rushing to complete my Patho assignment. It's a bitch, but then I have no one else to blame but myself for procrastination. Har ..... Serves me right, eh ?

So anyway, I am well. For people who were wishing me well, thanks so much for your kind prayers and umm ... wishes. For those who wish me death, hah .... ! Too damn bad you didn't get your wish (and prayers) come true ! Hah ... !

I suspect I might be pregnant.

I was puking my guts out just. You know that bit of spasm when you know you have nothing else in the tummy to empty. Yup. Got that and more. I didn't know how it happened though. The puking bit of course. I was fine this morning. You know really psyched out to be at work so that I can go back early today. Really.

Then around 10-ish, received a popup message (or call ?? Sheesh ... I can't remember !) from Eileen saying that Suma is not in and that there weren't anyone in the Library. I said I was okay about going up to the Library (giving me a chance to complete my assignment). So before I left my cosy, cosy prep room, I ate a slice of Gardenia (so good, you can even eat it on its own !). Brought my stuff upstairs and settled down to complete the task. After a few lines (of copying and pasting), I started to feel light headed and nauseated. I thought it was just because my spectacles were a little senget (my niece sat on my face. I was wearing my glasses then). So I took it off and decided to rest my head. Leaned back on the seat and I started to feel really awful.

Eileen came up then to chit chat. Told her I was overcame with sudden light headedness. She smiled that knowing smile. I said, "Har, I'm joining your club." She looked taken aback so I quickly said, "The nauseousness bit of it." She smiled. After a few minutes (during which I told her there is a security cam facing our direction. I was sitting back on the chair with my bare feet on an opposite chair, getting really comfy) when she decided to siam for a bit. When she left I went back to the counter and lay my head down. I got that full feeling and so decided to make my way to the loo. Har too late. I regurgitate right in front of the counter. Luckily there was no one to witness my "drama".

Quickly I went to the loo and the rest came up. Man, what a head rush.

Puked a couple more times. Once more in the Library loo and the other in my prep room. Arrgghh ....

I feel so weak. My tummy feels weak. I can't even eat the Gardenia (so good, you can even eat it on its own !) I brought for lunch. Made me a mug of Milo and I'm not even half way through it. Although the Chinese pear I just ate seemed to be holding on. Eileen suggested that I take something sour in, so I had a piece of Orange Peel. I don't know how all of them are holding on. I might need to empty out the tummy again. Shoot. I can't swivel my head without feeling faint. Must. Turn. My. Whole. Body. To. Look. At. The. Sides.

On the other hand, naah ...

I can't be pregnant. 1) I'm at that time of the month, and 2) My "boyfriend" is definitely not a phantom lover !

I think I have a sick fascination with this song, Shout by Tears For Fears. I keep putting it on repeat mode on my discman. I like how the heavy synthesised beats ring in my ears. And I would usually blast the song at full volume. Another song that keeps giving me this kinda emotional, sad feeling is Save A Prayer by Duran Duran (coming to concert in Singapore !). The starting bit, where there was some kinda flutey beat is fantastic. Simply fanstatic. I don't really know how to describe it. You have to listen to it to know exactly. It's a sad song played in a fast tune.

I think this stems from the fact that these are like totally 80s tracks and I do admit that I have a strange affinity for that era. Yup, strange and weird.

*sighs*

You know what I need to do ? Change my blog template. I've had this for like months and months and I think I am sort of like .... *bleargh* .....

One Day I'll Fly Away ~ Shirley Bassey

I may get along, when love is gone
Still you made your mark, here in my heart
One day I'll fly away
Leave your love to yesterday
What more can your love do for me?
When will love be through with me?

I followed the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin
My life again

One day I'll fly away
Leave your love to yesterday
What more can your love do for me?
When will love be through with me?

Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day that dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
Leave your love to yesterday
What more can your love do for me?
When will love be through with me?

Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day that dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
(Fly away)

If You Could Read My Mind ~ Gordon Lightfoot

If you could read my mind love
What a tale my thoughts could tell
Just like an old time movie
’bout a ghost from a wishin’ well
In a castle dark or a fortress strong
With chains upon my feet
You know that ghost is me
And I will never be set free
As long as I’m a ghost that you can’t see
If I could read your mind love
What a tale your thoughts could tell
Just like a paperback novel
The kind that drugstores sell
When you reach the part where the heartaches come
The hero would be me
But heroes often fail
And you won’t read that book again
Because the ending’s just too hard to take

I’d walk away like a movie star
Who gets burned in a three way script
Enter number two
A movie queen to play the scene
Of bringing all the good things out in me
But for now love, let’s be real
* I never thought I could act this way *
And I’ve got to say that I just don’t get it
I don’t know where we went wrong
But the feelin’s gone
And I just can’t get it back

If you could read my mind love
What a tale my thoughts could tell
Just like an old time movie
’bout a ghost from a wishin’ well
In a castle dark or a fortress strong
With chains upon my feet
But stories always end
And if you read between the lines
You’ll know that I’m just tryin’ to understand
The feelin’s that you lack
I never thought I could feel this way
And I’ve got to say that I just don't get it
I don’t know where we went wrong
But the feelin’s gone
And I just can’t get it back

So let us welcome the newest member (@ least for my case) of the blogspot family. Elaine Chong. Or more affectionately know as Lainey. Welcome aboard. Hope the journey would be as great for you as it is for me.

I am at this stage in my mind where I feel as though I am a social pariah.

Know what ? Friends are not all that cracked up to be. It's like the whole world have this insane idea that everybody else needs friends. But friends can only travel with you until that certain point in your life. After that, you are on your own, babes.

I watched And The Band Played On last night. I've heard about the movie but well, yesterday was when I saw it in all its glory. I must admit it really was hard hitting. And I think that fame and fortune should not come into play when you are dealing with human lives. Like in the movie, Dr Gallo was more interested in seeking fame by being the one who discovered the virus. Even though the French doctors were much more consistent in trying to identify the causative agent in the new mysterious disease.

So anyway. It's World's AIDS Day. Time to remember that we are not all that mighty even with the advancement of Science and Technology. Something which is less than 0.2 microns big can cause huge social and financial burden.

Happy 22nd Birthday Elaine Chong !

My mother. You are the centre of my universe. I love you, even if you might not think I don't show it at times. I really love the times we spent together. Just the two of us, with the 5 "crazy" cats.

Hello lovelies ....

Just what have you guys been up to ? Ain't life grand ?

Oh, btw, did I mention that I passed my Advanced Theory. Now all I got to do is get my PDL and an instructor. Anybody out there want to recommend your driving instructor ? I promise to make it strictly business.

So drop me a line .....

Cheerio !

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS !!!!

A quickie.

Final day of Ramadan. First day of Syawal tomorrow.

My leave for second to fourth Syawal was approved. *Yay !!!*

Although I need to catch up on my assignments. :((((

Tickets going, going .... gone !!!

Gave them to Siti. She's gonna pull an all-nighter with her current squeeze. Will get her to comment on this event soon.

Thanks Roz. Wouldn't mind giving them to you. Let's see if my luck favours me to win anymore free tix, huh ?

Thanks for your support, people !

Hey guys, one more day to the movie marathon.

So far no takers.

Somebody ? Anyone ? Anybody ?

Hey guys, public announcement. Listen up.

I've got a pair of tickets to a movie marathon (3 movies in a row) for this Friday. The marathon is at Cathay Cineleisure and the first movie starts at midnight. Movies being screened are Fanfan La Tulipe, Last Life In The Universe and Love Actually.

Any interested parties, can leave me a message or email. No charge. No joke.

Please do so by 6 pm Friday so that we have ample time to meet and I can handover the tickets.

Some details of movies :
Fanfan la Tulipe (PG)
(French Dialogue with English Subtitles)

Director: Gerard Krawczyk
Cast: Penélope Cruz, Vincent Perez

In the reign of Louis XV, Fanfan la Tulipe, soldier of fortune and a tireless womanizer, is destined, according to the predictions of a seductive Gypsy girl, to marry the King's daughter. But Fanfan is pursued by men who want to force him to marry his latest conquest. To avoid being forced into marriage, Fanfan enrolls in the army and will experience the most incredible and outrageous adventures that link his destiny forever to that of his country, France, and its courtesans.


Last Life In The Universe

In a secret hideout, two accidental killers spend the most awkward three days together hoping to find love, life and redemption.

Love Actually (TBA)
Genre: Comedy

Director: Richard Curtis
Cast: Hugh Grant, Alan Rickman, Emma Thompson, Laura Linney, Colin Firth

This ensemble comedy tells ten separate (but intertwining) stories of love in London (with a small portion set in France), leading up to a big climax on Christmas Eve. One of the threads follows the brand new (unmarried) Prime Minister (Grant) of the United Kingdom, who on his first day in 10 Downing Street falls in love with the girl (McCutcheon) who brings him his tea (Thompson plays his sister; Rickman plays her husband). Another story follows the relationship between a stepfather (Neeson) and his young stepson.

I was so knackered out yesterday. Can you believe it that the moment I lay my head on my pillow, I was out cold ? I didn't even need to read a paragraph of the most boring book in the universe ! And when I woke up this morning, I was so rested that I didn't even have a shut eye after my morning meal. Man, exhaustion is damn good, once in a while.

So anyway, someone has been bugging me to write about my class. I told that someone that I had already done so. But, that someone was saying that whatever was written was not what that someone wanted. That someone was thinking I should write more along the lines of my "gratitude" to that certain someone's nagging and pushing me to not waste anymore time "preparing solutions" (making copper sulphate solutions, was the exact phrase that somebody used). I told that someone, all in good time considering last Wednesday was my very first lesson ! All in due time. Today, I dedicated a whole paragraph to this matter and hope that somebody would quieten down until the time comes for the next course entry. Without naming names, I'm sure half of you would have guessed who that someone is.

The way you think about things makes you a Visual Linguist. This means you are highly intelligent and have many diverse talents. You have especially strong linguistic talents and are very good at interpreting visual information. You've got your feet on the ground, but your mind is capable of very complex, abstract thought. Compared to others, you are easily able to see situations from many different angles. You also understand how things work in a very practical way.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Visual Linguist? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Visual Linguist. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

That sure makes me feel good ! What are you ? Try here

Oh . My . GOD .

My first class was like that. The room was crowded, I think there were like 20 - 25 people. Nearly two thirds of them were from the previous semester. So they were basically in their small groups, chattering away, just another session for them to meet up. I walked in, saw where Kavitha was sitting and headed her direction. I sat in front of her, right at the corner, feeling like such a dork. We exchanged hellos but she had another friend beside her and obviously waiting for another person. I had just broken my fast then, so I just sat quietly, browsing the new materials I'd been given and wondering if I was gonna flunk my assignments to high heavens. Sipping my peach Ribena, I was surreptitiously looking at my watch, wanting the 7 o'clock hour to be over, so that we can move on to the 8 o'clock hour and before you know it, it's 9.15 pm and class's dismissed.

But of course, the hands inched slowly. Taking their own sweet time to reach quarter past 7. In my head, I started having doubts of my decision and then without much warning, I saw a 2.7K note flying pass, waving goodbye. "Great, " I thought. "That was the sign, man." 2 mins later, I was joined by a newcomer, Kim. We exchanged pleasantries and soon the lecturer came in. Kim called me over to sit in the empty chair beside her. I moved and that was the beginning of my 2 excrutiating hours.

The population of the class was a mixed bunch. On one end of the scale, we have people who basically have NO knowledge with anything related to biology, anatomy and physiology. Aside from the usual biologic references thrown out by the newspapers. And on the other end of the scale, we have people who are working in the research and service labs and who basically know (or so they think) everything. I am sitting in the middle. At times, the whole session was going far too slowly to sustain interest and there were times when I caught myself going, "HUH ?!? I didn't know that !?!"

As with any normal classes, there were the buggers who asked all the inane questions and others who are Mr/Ms-Know-It-All. The lecturer, well ... okay, she was alright I think. Although her (mis)pronounciations of certain words did raise a little suspicion of me actually making the grades. Anyway, it was only the first session so I hope things will more or less improve my disposition as I get my groove on.

On that note, I still have another new class next Thurs to critique.

Oh, guys, wish me luck. I am re-taking my Advanced Theory test later today. *chorus* "GOOD LUCK !!!"

My first class starts tonight. Oh man, what exciting times ! Although I am feeling slightly sleepy at the moment. Need caffeine. Will load after break fast.

So anyway, Pathophysiology is on tonight. I read through the course guide, WAH ! Damn interesting, sia ! Why didn't anyone warn me about this earlier ???

Hey, sorry, short entry today. I need to go back to the customer service area. Break time is almost over !

Discussion of the day.

Should I or should I not go to Geylang Serai.

Pros
1) They are selling lobsters
2) There is a Turkish Kebabs stall
3) Dendeng is damn sweeeetttt
4) Good bargains for clothing and furnishings
5) Soak up the atmosphere of Ramadan/Syawal

Cons
1) I HATE THE DAMN PLACE

My day began good today.

When I woke up for sahur, I was not grumpy. Went to the kitchen, Mother didn't cook this morning. She made sardine sandwiches and heated up the dish of the day the day before. Assam Pedas, I had that Sunday morning so I didn't want to eat it again this morning. So I decided to load up on milk and the sandwiches. Taking my food into my room, I switched on the tv. Was glued to CNA to find out last night's results. After a few minutes of waiting, finally I found out. Man Utd 2 Liverpool 1. Giggsy was the scorer for both Man U's goals. Yeah ! So no reason to be grumpy. After finding out the good news, I switched channels. Channel 5, STEPS !!!! How to be grumpy, even though I'd missed out the first half hour of the programme ?? Then Mother came out of her room and asked me if I wanted anything else. I said I wanted an omelete. She fried it and took it to my room, I told her to leave it in the kitchen because I wanted to eat a bit of rice with the egg. So I went to get rice, put egg on it and sprinkle a little be of soya sauce. *Yumz !* For the record, I only had 2 pieces of bread (sandwich, lah ...) and two mugs of milk. And the rice of course. That was good.

So I hope my day will end good too.

See what Care Bear you are.

"Life as you know it, is without its sense of irony." ~ Morpheus

And so it seems to the group of people who managed to be one of the first people to catch The Matrix Revolutions to have to deal with the screening glitch. Poor buggers. I can just imagine the frustration they must have felt when Trinity's voice came on in the middle of the fight between Neo and Agent Smith ! You should read yesterday's print edition of The New Paper regarding this bungle. Really cracked me up.

Seems like everyone who's someone is linked on Friendster. What's the fascination ? I am still in contact with my primary school friends without any help of that program. So what's the big deal ?

Image taken from Official Matrix Website

So anyways, today is T-H-E big day. And it's only F-A-I-R that I keep harping over it. For those of you who are new to my blog page and are just reading this first dose of my laughable, pathetic, gawddamn, boring piece of crap, let me clear the air. It's not crap. It's my style of writing. But then again who's to say my style isn't crap, right ???

Let me move on ....

What I was referring to was *drumrolls* ......

The opening day of The Matrix Revolutions !!!!

*claps*

Okay, some of you will definitely give this movie a wide berth, but indulge me anyway (since, you are on my page and have to read whatever "crap" I dish out. Unless of course, you are just about ready to look/move on to another page. And I must say I can't applaud you for that decision of yours ...) ...

If you must know, I am definitely not going to watch the first show tonight (10 pm across the island, approx 140 minutes; length of film, need to wake up early tomorrow). So I will be keeping my ears open to all sorts of conclusions to the movie. I've read the reviews both good and bad and I am still eager to watch the movie. Given the fact that none of my buddies want to watch the movie with me, I will go alone. On a weekend. Quite possibly for a double bill. On the other hand, The Matrix Movie Marathon sounds good too. I wanna go !!!!

Hehe.... Today is definitely a good day for me. I am in high spirits because of the above mentioned and also because of Manchester United's win over Glasgow Rangers. So feeling high is definitely on my list !

Guess where I am ? Not exactly in the office. Yupz. Have been assigned to the customer service area. So right at this moment I am sitting at the lift lobby, typing up my fresh blog facing the lifts. Once in a while when the phone rings I'd pick it up and answer. So my train of thoughts might be interrupted anytime. If I sound incoherent, my apologies.

One more day to the official opening of The Matrix Revolutions. People, I am not booked yet. So, if you need company, just give me a ring !!! And I won't be over-booked. Trust me, I would not say "NO" to a Matrix movie. Never had and never will.

So what do you guys think of yesterday's entry ? Doesn't look exactly like me but does it sound like me ???

Gonna get back to work now. If you guys are dying to watch the movie mentioned, please call me. Ummm ... Pretty please ???

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It's Saturday ! My, my, how has the work week flown by ! Any plans for the day ?

I was thinking of doing a little clothes shopping but then I just can't be bothered. Will ring Mother later to see if she's made any plans to go out. Then I can tag along and steer her to my true purpose. *evil laugh* To get her a set of new Hari Raya clothes ! *rubs hands gleefully* My master plan will work this time !

So anyway. 2 items I am eyeing. My precious XBox and Motorola E380. The second one is depending on the availability of any other NEW Motorola flip phones. Don't ask me why, but I really, really adore flip phones. And not just from any brands. It has to be a Motorola. So these 2 items would be in my possession (hopefully) by the end of this year. If I do decide to go ahead with my evil ways ! *winks* *lol*

The aircon generator decided to die on us this Halloween's Day. Either that or the security guard forgot to switch it on.

This sucks.

I hate the feeling of dead air. Imagine all the windows are closed and there is no sound of any kinda movement. Yeah, the radio and the fan are switched on. Still. Aircon, man. Where are you ?

These few days I can really empathise with a scratching post. Man, the battle scars ranges from my upper arms to my hands and my calves. Oh, 2 fresh tracks on my ring finger and pinkie of my left hand. One piece of advice, never ever antoganise a sleeping or pissed off cat. You WILL pay !

In case there are some people who have been living under a rock for the past few months and needs a little direction, here's the movie to catch .....


Images are from Official Matrix Website

Capisce ?

We are experiencing the most awesome thunderstorm.

I love it !

I wanna be outdoors and feel the rain pounding down hard on my head. Only then would I be awaken and face my reality.

One more week until the worldwide opening of The Matrix : Revolutions. I C - A - N - N - O - T wait !

My tummy's killing me. I have this unsettled feeling. A maelstrom of upset tummy, crampy tummy and hungry tummy. I feel pain !!!

Know what I need to do ?

Aside from studying for my Final Theory test. And psyching myself that everything is going to be alright when I start my course.

I need to develop a poker face.

I think that is the most important aspect of my life here. At this point in time. I must be able to be blasé with the words bouncing around me. No reaction, just remember that I am not affected by those things.

I am feeling guilty.

Damn my conscience !

Wow, hey. Just had a really long weekend. Only really, and extra day that's all. Deepavali was over on Friday and I just hope I am not that late in wishing all my Hindu readers a Happy Deepavali !!! Planned a really good week but that didn't materialise. Why ? Hmm ...

Friday - Made plans to meet up with Sha and Fie for movie and general catch up and exchanging of news (goss) session. So much things had happened since we last met (ermm ... umm ... just last Sunday ...). Sad to say, Sha had to accompany her ma to Geylang Serai for umm ... grocery shopping ?? Fie asked if I wanted to just go out and meet anyway. By that time I was still curled up in bed with a really good book (romance, if you must know). And 'sides there is this Hindi film that I promised myself I have to catch. So Fie was left hung and dry ? (umm ... pardon the expression ...) And yeah, the movie was really good and I finished my book to boot !

Saturday - Made plans to meet Azleen for a shopping session after my Study Skills Seminar at Hartford. Unfortunately, I had to run an errand for my ma so I told Az if we could push it to maybe around 4-ish, 5-ish. She said it is too late and that she'd go alone. Yeech ... Sorry Az ! Oh, btw, Ayu came over the night before and after everything is said and done, I'm just a glorified babysitter masquarading as her aunt. Sad, but true. *shrugs*

Sunday - Made plans to meet up with Jer and Belle. We have not seen each other for many, many moons !!! But as usual, I had to cancel because by the time Jer finished her lessons, it'd be almost close to 4 pm. So the meeting time was set to 5 pm. Really late because I had expected to be home by 6-ish. Had to help out Ma because Ramadan is like, umm ... tomorrow (today, in case you guys had lost me somewhere up there). Sorry guys, hoped you really had a really good time. I mean really.

On the flipside, due to these unscheduled cancellations, I managed to finish 4 books over the weekend. Each book is roughly about 400 pages, so that translates to about 1,600 pages that I'd covered over those 3 days.

Yeap.

No social life but a record breaking feat even for my mundane existence !

Know what ?

I realised that I'm being given the cold shoulder by some of my "hang-out" colleagues. Just because I'd changed my mind about going out with them after work. I know I'd told them I would be happy to have dinner or drinks or even go pubbing with them. But now I'd decided not to and guess I'd been given the necessary "punishment".

And guess what ?

I don't give a rat's ass.

As long as I'm being left alone.

I'm fine.

Reasons for my absence.








Can't think of any.

Until tomorrow.

Well, well, well ..... Whaddya know ..... I'm back at work.

People has been asking me if it's wise to be back and I said yes dammit ! The doc's gave me only 3 days not 5 not 7 not even 14 days, so of course I'd be back. I'd finished my medication (antiviral) and am waiting for that one or two errant ulcers to heal and the red spotting to completely vanished. Of course I'm better.

Infectious stage is over.

Or is it ?

Song: Bent by Don Richmond

Update : Centre of Disease Control aka Helena's temple aka Helena's body

The "poor" bugger has been taking her antiviral tablets regularly. Obviously she understands that main control require extra help to get rid of these infidels ! Already signs of attack are minimising. Ulcerations in the oral cavity are shrinking and slowly vanishing. Oracort E has been helpful in helping us fight the terrorists. Although it makes bugger gag when she applied the protection. Swallowing without any pain elicited would resume within the next 2 days. A necessary evil in our quest to overcome the enemies.
No broken skin detected on all 4 limbs. Bugger has T-H-E determination to NOT scratch where it itches the most. For that, we will have a victory party soon. Yeap, guards would still be on high alert then. No signs of increased temperature. Headquarters were notified to NOT up the temperature because it would be futile. Might even kill more of our brothers and sisters fighting the good fight.

We have won the fight. Battlefield will be surrendered back to us soon.

Next update in 24 hours.

Over and out.

People laughed when I told them the reason my doctor gave me 3 days medical leave. Even my doctor laughed when he diagnosed my ailment. Get ready .....

I've got Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease.

Yup, you didn't read wrong. HF&MD, something that only kids are susceptible to. I'm a big kid, I told my doc. He laughed again. Damn ... He looked really cute when he laughs. The skin near his eyes crinkles and that's attractive. So anyway, I digressed. The only kids I've been around with are my two nieces and both seemed fine to me.

My throat started acting up and giving me grief early Saturday morning. I thought I was just getting a short visit from the flu nasties so I just shrugged it off. I even managed to squeeze in a movie, American Pie: The Wedding, that day. It was hilarious. The movie that is. A bit disgusting and grossy at certain points in the movie, but overall, a barrel of laughs. I personally think, I have the hots for big sized gay men. So anyway, I even stayed for our usual goss session with Eve, Mahesha and Raji at Olio Dome. The day was great except for my irritating throat.

Sunday morning, my throat was still irritating the hell out of me. Swallowing was a bitch, still is btw. And then I saw the red spots. That got me worried for a minute. I told my mother that myabe I've got HF&MD and she told me not to spout nonsense. I thought yeah, true .... And *bam*, this morning I was "officially" diagnosed !

So here I am ... writing this in the midst of counting the spots that had started appearing since the visit to the doc's. Sad but true. Who else but M-E, who gets kids' diseases ???

So, send your sympathy over to me, yeah ?

I am feeling low. Like alone and nobody understands the pain inside.

Maybe my brain is low on glucose. I skipped dinner and breakfast. I feel like I have to be in physical pain so that they would know. I wish I am brave enough to inflict pain physically to dull the pain inside. Exactly what pain inside is something I might not be able to put it in words. I feel like I am such an eyesore. A plague that people avoid. But I chose to not gallivant around town. And now, I feel like such a social outcast.

This and that.

Culminating in one big, huge, gigantic, fuckass day !

I didn't write yesterday !!!

My world IS ruined !!!

Yup, overkill. Like they say around here, "drama-mama".

Okay on a serious note.

Why are my archives list missing some months ??? Can somebody help me figure it out ?

Thank you in advance !

Can't help staying away. And no I didn't cheat !


You are Trinity, from "The Matrix."
Strong, beautiful- you epitomize the ultimate
heroine.


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The Matrix Revolutions will open in about a month's time ! I can't wait ! I've seen the trailer after the credits of Reloaded ended and couldn't get enough of it. If you guys are also suffering from the same symptoms as I am (excitable as October inches towards the end, frequent visits to messageboards to give your 2 cents worth of Matrix insights, even though the MBs are totally unrelated to the subject of discussion, searching the entire WWW for the most recent updates of The Matrix Trilogy, can't stop playing whatever Matrix paraphernalia you'd hoarded (game, DVDs, soundtracks), downloading Matrix wallpapers and/or screensavers and wearing those cool trenchcoats and shades), it is time to make a visit to the official The Matrix website.

But if you are really suffering form the above symptoms, there isn't a need for me to advertise this because I bet you your last penny that that page is set as your homepage. Like I did mine.

You're a love song

I just came back from visiting my mother in KKH.

Yeap, she's in the hospital again. Nope, not over her foot. It's her womb this time. Dued for cleaning and washing. Yeap, I'm grossing out half of my readers. But ....

I believe I should tell it as it is. Where's the point in the red tape and cover ups ?

Oh, btw, I've finished reading "The Black Echo".

I lovit, I lovit, I lovit ....... !!!!

No turning back

In the mailbox yesterday.

1st October 2003

Ms A, Helena S
Blk (Censored)
#12-1376
Singapore (Censored)

Dear Ms A,

RE: Central Queensland University - Bachelor of Biomedical Science

I am pleased to be informed by Central Queensland University that you have been granted entry into Bachelor of Biomedical Science.

The programme will commence in November 2003, please submit the first instalment S$2700.00 in either cash or cheque before 8th October 2003 to confirm your acceptance. All cheques are to be made payable to "Central Queensland University"

Please do contact us when you receive this letter, so that our programme consultants could go through in detail about your acceptance into the programme.

The following will be our operating hours:
Mon - Fri : 9:00 AM - 8:30 PM
Saturday : 9:00 AM - 5:00 PM
Sunday/Public Holiday : Closed

There would be an orientation session to welcome you to the programme :
Date : 28th October 2003, Tuesday
Time : 7.00pm
Venue : 176 Orchard Road Centrepoint #06-06 Singapore 238843

Should you have further queries, please do feel free to contact us. We welcome you into the programme and we look forward to serving you in the future.

Thank you and Best Wishes in your studies.


Yours Sincerely

Alice Prasetyo
Consultant
Tel: 6235 xxxx ext 111
Email: (Censored).com.sg

Say you'll be mine

I have to thank this current book I'm reading, "The Black Echo" by Michael Connelly for upping my art knowledge. From this book, I got to know 2 fantastic artists/painters. Hieronymus Bosch and Edward Hopper. And so I spent the better part of this morning 'researching' on both and the author of the mentioned book. Edward Hopper is a realist whilst Hieronymus Bosch is a surrealist. The differences between their styles are like black and white (no pun intended).

H.B. was a 15th century painter with a really dark vision of the world. I think his most famous painting has got to be The Garden of Earthly Delights. I would say he specialised in panelled paintings because most of his major works can be 'opened and closed'. His main theme is based on religion (Christianity) and how perverse he saw the world. His works are very detailed to the point of the littlest creature/event/colour/figures. I was awestruck by how stunning each and every single piece is.

E.H. 's Nighthawks was mentioned in the book and I was curious to see whether the description of the painting was what I had imagined it to be. I wasn't disappointed. Loneliness is the theme. Everyone is alone seemed to be the message depicted in almost all of his works.



Edward Hopper, Nighthawks
Oil on canvas, 1942; 84.1 x 152.4 cm
Friends of American Art Collection, 1942.51
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Back to you

Taking time off today. Meeting Eeda at Tampines to get her pressie ....

Yeah, yeah still hung up on that ....

Love you more

Happy Children's Day 2003 !!!!

Invincible

People are so bloody rude !

I was caught in a massive traffic jam on the way to work today. The tailback started just before the Stevens Road exit on the Pan Island Expressway right up to the Bukit Timah Expressway. Apparently there was an accident just after Chantek Flyover (according to the radio traffic watch) but on the electronic signboard along the PIE, it said vehicle breakdown. I'm like, jeez .... I'm late for work, just get the f**king vehicle outta the way !!!

And to add to the bloody jam, other vehicles were cutting left, right and centre. I mean, for goodness sakes ... We are all caught in the bloody jam courtesy of some bloody rude drivers and these idiotic buggers are adding fuel to the fire !

Jeez ...

So I'd finally reached work at 8.15 am. 15 mins late. Not that I will get a reprimand from my boss (the traffic is out of my hands, dude ...), but still my punctuality record has been tarnished so early in the 4th term ! Yeah, so I waited for almost an hour hoping to subside my rage and yeah, it cooled down a notch.

Oh, btw, just so you know. I wasn't driving. But I do feel the frustration of the school bus driver. He's such a sweet guy. Even volunteered to call my office to explain (at least that was what I perceived when he spoke to me. I was listening to the radio on my receiver, so the message came sort of distorted.).

Since you took your love away

I am fresh out of ideas. Nothing to write. Nothing of imporatnce at least.

Except.

I have this in mind and will type it up.

a rat-tat-tat
a rat-tat-tat
dum-dum-doo
de-doo-de-dum
a rat-tat-tat
a rat-tat-tat

Nothing at all

OMG ....

You cannot believe the stupidity of human beings. Actually stupid is too nice a word to use on those dumb f**ks !!!

You go on and surfed to my colleague's page. And no, my grouch is not with her. More so for the characters being played out in her post. I can't believe these things happen in real life. The lengths people go through just to avoid detection. But, it's darn stupid. James Bond and the Bond girl, they are most definitely NOT.

Jeezzzz....

Unbelievable.

You're everything that matters to me

Today my mom stepped out of the house. Further than the East side. Yeah, she's been out before since her surgery. But those times were for the routine visits to the doctor's. Today, we went shopping. And when I say "we", it means Mom and I. Yeap. With me.

Actually I was planning to get speakers for my VCD player. I was actually thinking of getting one from the shops nearby but Mom said that I could get one easily and way cheaper at People's Park Complex. So I waited. At least until Mom is so much better to drag her with me. However, she decided that we should go today. So off we went to get my coveted speakers. I bought it, connected it to my player and realised that there was something missing. A kinda "ooommmppness". That turn out to be bassless. Yeap, no base and treble pitch so all the songs played fell flat.

Then my ingenuity (is that the correct word to use ?) took over and I decided to switch my PC speakers with the ones I bought. And yeah, I fixed my speakers alright. Sweet, sweet muzak .....

I think it's love

The first entry for today.

Alright I promise not to bombard peeps there with too much entries. I know much too difficult to read. So I will not be a pain in the ass and torture my good readers. Like the saying goes, "Too much of a good thing can be bad". Yeap. I'm shameless.

Learn to love again

Okay this is the complete opposite of the earlier link.

My bad and good karmic inflections are done for the day.

(HUH !?! What the f**k ?)

This heart will love again

I think the rain is not going to let up. It started at around 10 this morning. Almost non stop drizzle outside. I stared outside my window pane and I can see the grey skies, streams of water down the glass panel and an occasional "plops" on my window sill. Life is bliss. I wish I could be outside at this moment. Arms outstretched to my left and right, twirling in the drizzle. Hair plastered to my head and face upturned to the sky. Life is indeed bliss !

Stay with me

And here I thought my life bites.

Reading this blog made me realise that all is not a lost cause for me. At least I still have my faith in a positive life. If you have the time to spare, don't forget to visit the above link.

You'll be sorry

So apparently I'd shot my mouth yesterday. Well, if I had and what was posted yesterday wasn't true then, I apologise to the Management for bad mouthing them. But if it's otherwise, then I am entitled to my rant. Wait a minute ... I AM entitled to rant. This is my damn bloody blog page ! So I won't take back my words. And yeah, if they still wanna fire me, I don't bloody care anymore. I need money but who doesn't, right ? But I won't be a slave for it if it means I have to compromise my principles (Umm ... what are they anyway ?) ! So yeah ... That's it ... Umm ...


P/S : I was high on caffeine and hence a little incoherent but I do my work damn well, dammit !

Too close to tears

Oh, just heard this during lunch.

All the teachers will get incentive in the form of monetary bonuses. New, old, part time, full time, all the teachers will get subject to pro-ration. I repeat ALL the TEACHERS will get it.

Crap, right ?

Reason for giving this incentive, to cushion the 3% cut of the CPF starting next month. What a load of BS ! As if NON TEACHERS do NOT receive CPF cuts. Work bites. My employer bites. I don't care who reads this anyway. Wanna fire me, go right ahead. I can't put up with this kind of BS anymore.

Centre of my heart

So here I am. Sitting in front of my workstation. Sipping coffee in my faithful Mac's styrofoam cup. I've just finished having breakfast. Feeling so darned sleepy. Listening to some woman warbling, "Just call me angel of the morning angel. Just touch my cheek before you leave me, darling...." on the radio. Just been reading the other peeps blog pages. Catching up with what's new/exciting/interesting/notorious things in a space of a day. So there.

Oh, met up with Sha and Fie. As usual I am always the first one to arrive. Not that I mind, cause I got to see the trailer of "My Boss's Daughter" and "The Italian Job" on the large screen in front of Shaw House. MBD was pretty funny but in the typical slapstick comedy, I will stay far, far away. TIJ is a must watch for me. Mark Wahlberg is like so delicious !

Passed the evening sitting in Starbucks after dinner. Earth shattering conversations. Like the hot factors of Jude Law and Rupert Everett (both equally hot, btw), fact that Aisha and Shikin got rejected from NIE (it's like so blardy funny, but I dare not laugh, for fear they might get a chance to say, "Backacha, L"), discussing my niece's name (come on, guys. It's not that cheesy once you get used to it) and that we can get really good bargains at Cash Converters. For a start, getting tennis racquets and roller blades for under 20 bucks. *winks*

So anyway, we left Starbucks after sitting for almost 2 hours with just 2 drinks to our table (Sha had the Caramel Frap. The one she was "raving" for, for quite sometime and Fie had the Hot Cocoa. I skipped drinks cause 1) I didn't want to stay up the whole night and 2) I was still so blardy full from dinner !). My observation, we were a bit reluctant to cut short the night but considering we had to get up for work in 8 hours, we had better move our asses to the nearest ride home.

We still plan to meet up soon. For one thing, we (Fie and I) need to get Sha's birthday present. And another thing, we wanted to play tennis together. It would all be in a good day's fun. Soon, very soon, I hope.

Oh Has, found out from Sha you have been reading my (crappy!) blog and I want to thank you for the support (!?!). Give a shout out if you have the time, wokay ?

Until later.

Lay all your love on me

So today after work I'm gonna be meeting Sha and Fie.

Gonna be giving Fie her gift.

I am still stuck on what to get Sha. I am so bloody unimaginative. Can't even give the present on time. Gosh.

My head is spinning now. It's been such a boring day today. I'd taken the remainder time off if only I wasn't meeting those 2. It's amazing that we are still in contact. My colleagues and other friends are amazed that we managed to keep in touch even after years and years of leaving secondary school. I have yet to tell them that I still keep in touch with a handful of my primary school mates !

Just called Mother at home. Checked up on her. Earlier she had to go to Changi General for her checkup. I just wanna know what her doctor had said. I was a bit worried yesterday when I changed her dressing. She had gotten her foot wet and the skin of her whole left foot started peeling off. Her skin was super dry whenever we bandaged up the wound. Yesterday was even more depressing because you would never know when a broken skin occur and infection sets in. So anyway, last night after cleaning and washing her wound, I did not bandage up the foot. Just to air and dry the area surrounding the wound.

This morning, when I checked her foot, all seemed well and I bandaged up the foot to prevent the cotton gauze from falling off and exposing her open wound. It's amazing to note the progress of growing flesh. At first, just after the amputation, the gaping hole was big enough to put in 5 fifty cents coins. Now the "pocket" can barely take in a one cent coin !

So yeah, Mother's healing pretty well. I can't wait to see how the flesh stopped growing and for the skin to grow and encompass the wound, thus closing it. Hmm ... Wonder how Mother would feel when all the bandages come off and for her to see her left foot. Gosh.

If it'd happened to me, I don't know if I can be as strong as Mother was/is.

C'est la vie.

Why

Rain has always caused me to sit down and cry. I don't know why my dam always burst like there is no tomorrow whenever the sky opens up. I like to see rivulets of water running down the windows. It's so calming and makes my throat swell. I had to fight down the tears about to brim in my eyes. I am not a crybaby but rain always makes me cry.

Never say never again

Today, 2 years ago, was my first day at St Francis Methodist School. I was the newbie on the block. Feeling around like a blind person. There wasn't any specific instructions given as to what I should or should not do. Aside from the solution preparation manual and the practical sheets of the upcoming experiments. The labs were totally new and there were plenty of things to be done. Putting away all the new glassware, wiping the tables, placing stools per bench, inserting the bunsen burners to the gas taps, arranging the chemicals into the cupboards and drawers and removing old labels from glass bottles. Believe me, you, that was the most interesting part of my stint here. Nobody came to disturb me. I was totally on my own from the minute I logged in to the time I left. Back then, I would come in at around 8 am and take off home by 4.30 pm. That was way back when I was smart. It lasted the whole of the 4th term. After which the school holidays came and I end my work day at 5 pm. And remained so until now. Unless I'd decided to take time off.

2 years here have flown by so fast. I remember some of the teachers who were pretty friendly and tried to make my day as sociable as it possibly could. Mrs Bhavani, yeah was just asking about her from Jayashree (Chem teacher). She's on sick leave (Bhavani) and would only be back next year. Also Eve, one of the nicest person here. NO, make that friendliest colleague. Stephanie, another person who tried to make the new person feel at ease. When I first saw her, I thought she was a Malay. And I was happy for a while, until I saw her chain. So that was that. Hey Steph, I've never thanked you for the heads up on you-know-who (currently the "princess" here.) ..... Oh, definitely not forgetting Neo Lin Chen (Mr Neo). The quiet, dependent officer I have to report to in the General Office. And Mr Thomas George aka Chow's 1st Boss. Mrs Montero aka my 1st boss too.

Gosh .....

Just the people I will miss if I do decide to quit my job. The current "in-group" members; Eileen, Chow, Mahesha, Heman, Nicki, Malek included.

Melancholic.

I blame the weather.

There you were

Gonna be meeting Shaheeda after work today. I am gonna pass her the 2 taped episodes of Alias. Later, we are gonna be getting Fie's and her birthday presents. I figured, why be a Scrooge when you have 2 great friends at your side. So, we are gonna go shopping. Hmm .....

Thing is I'm not too sure what to get her. Sha and I decided we should share. And we decided to get her a voucher from Borders. I know, I know, very special (sarcasm) and full of effort (more sarcasm). But what are we to do ?

Fie, I know you have been MIA (again !?!) for sometime, but please if you are reading this, anytime today (before 5 pm, that is), point us in the right direction, okay ? Just text me. Or Sha.

Okay ?

Wouldn't hurt so bad

Samuel is leaving for UCL tomorrow. Yeah well, some people's got money to spend on a UK education. I'm definitely gonna miss him. The irksome, calculative bugger. Although ..... He's been good to me ..... That is just him being himself. I bet he himself will not deny the fact he's all that and more.

Sheeesh .....

I'd come to terms that there won't be a Samuel around to bug me to consider taking a part time course in this institution or any other. No Samuel to go to the movies with. To drag me to Carrefour at Suntec (his favourite shopping mall !). Make me give him a treat whenever we go to a sushi restaurant.

Sheeesh .....

Helena, snap out of it. It's not as if he's not ever coming back or that we would totally lose contact. There is always MSN, the all powerful chatting tool. Well, this is sounding way too awkward. So ..... Samuel, I blame you !

Oh, just to let you know, I've applied to Hartford to do the part time degree course in Biomed. I'm not sure if this is the best option for me. However, if it doesn't turn out right, I'm blaming you. Yeap. My scapegoat.

So enjoy yourself there. And keep me updated on your exploits. Who knows when our paths will cross again. So with that, I end this post.

Night, Dear.

Make it easy on me

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but aaliyah shakira? realli? yeh..sweet..very sweet..but..u noe..aaliyah ("if at first you don't succeed...get yourself up and try again..") and shakira ("underneath your cloootthhheesss")

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Only in my dreams

Hey peeeeeepssss.....

Helena's back !!!!

Okay, speaking of myself in the third person is like... hmm... cuckoo ???

Decision making time.

I have decided to do a part time degree course. I know, I know, I'd said before I would either study full time or not at all but well, it's tough you see. The situations and circumstances thrust upon me is making me change my mind. Har, a weak person, indeed I am.

Got interrupted.

So anyway, I am determine not to be in this "place" for the next two years. Come Wednesday, I would have been with my present employer for 2 years. I came in here like this and so far there hasn't been much improvement change since I first started. No sense in being hard headed. So my next challenge has been planned. Execution is deemed necessary.

And I am feeling nauseated.

To be your hero(ine)

Been playing with Iyah this morning. Everytime she hears my voice, she would flutter her eyelids, trying to prise her eyes open.

*aaawwwww*

Just to tell me to shut the effing up and let her sleep in peace.

My elder niece, well, she has been bugging me non stop since the minute she woke up. Now, she just asked for a piece of bread. Gave one earlier but she didn't finished it. Now she asked for another one. She even chose the type of bread and spread ! I bathed with her just so now she is all clean smelling. Before long, there will be chocolate streaks on her cheeks. Gonna go do a bit of grocery shopping and bringing dear Nazeera along.

I can handle it.

I am sure I can handle it.

No I can't.

Just like the first time

Had finally decided on a new name for baby number 2.

It's Aaliyah Shakira.

Sweet name for a sweet babe !

Human touch

My sister has finally given birth !!!!

I'm an aunt the 2nd time round !!!!

Baby's a girl !!!!

Yaaaaay !!!!

I can't stop the exclamation marks !!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alliances are made and broken so easily

Paradise lost

She surreptitiously glanced at the man sitting in front of her. Her view was often obscured by the newspaper he was reading. All she could make out at times was his eyes moving from line to line as he skimmed the articles in the papers. What a captivating movement they made, she thought. And what intelligent and gorgeous baby blues they were.

He looked up from the paragaraph he was reading and glanced the carriage. As he eyes made the slow scan from the left to the right of the small space, it slowly centered on the woman sitting in front of him. She was observing him in a way that she thought was inconspicuous. Their gazes caught and they shared a secret smile as if they were both aware of something that was unknown to the rest of the commuters.

Trying to prolong the mutual attention each was given so freely, she gave a tiny wink and placed her forefinger on her lips. She hoped ...

Movin' On

I tried the famous catfish main course at Swensen's last night. Was there with Doanna, Daniel, Samuel and Dr Quek. Dr Yeo was supposed to turn up too but apparently, he couldn't get out of a meeting so he ended up not coming at all. And according to Samuel, he was the one who suggested the meet up in light of Sam's going to London in September for a few years. Make that at the very least 3 years, IF he just completes his honours degree. So anyway, Dr Quek is back at TP (already knew it from Alisa's blog.), Doanna's working in a talent agency, Dr Yeo is still with Dunman Sec making waves (small ripples ?!?) in the Life Sciences industry. Oh, and Daniel is changing fields. He's going to Murdoch Uni in Feb next year after his ORD to pursue a degree in Mass Comm. I WANNA STUDY MASS COMM...!!!!

So anyway, that's like the latest news I could glean off from people in one night. Well, there are somethings that I have to conceal for lack of space. Memory space that is ! Oh, btw, Dr Quek paid for dinner. Felt bad because, we had plans to pay our own. He called for the bill and took out his card and when we wanted to pay our share, he waved us off. Gosh ! Dinner for 5 cost him $114. A hundred and fourteen bucks !! Shoot. No more dinners with (ex)lecturers !

Better best forgotten

Okay.

With a title like this, what can be better best forgotten ? Unrequited love. That's one.

Most embarrassing moment. That's two.

The lousiest sex with the most boring person. That's another notch on the belt.

That's it. I've come up empty. Anbody else want to add in ???

Turn around

My mother will be discharged today. I took leave from work today to go and pick her up.

Anyway, my elder sis dreamed that she'd be serving loads of drinks to people who come to see mother at home. She said the queue even extended to outside the main door. However, as they say, dreams are usually the opposite of reality.

So.

There'd be no one coming to visit my ma at home. Well, aside from my aunts, Cik Piah and Wak Long. And maybe my cuzs. Salihah, Ju (maybe), Kak Nana and Abang Sani. Well, this weekend, please don't ask me out. Will be busy at home with my ma and guests.

Just to let you in. My social life is not dead as a doornail, there is a meet up with some of my poly mates and ex-lecturers. Sam's leaving for the UK on the 13th of next month (Yasmin's b-dae ! See, I remembered !). I am still a bit sad. Why is that people who I have a good rapport with are always leaving ? *Arrgghhh....*

Every morning Chain reaction

Okay, just to update. I have had this blog up and running since Oct 2002. It's gonna be a year to the birth of my virtual thoughts. Mine and mine alone. The collaborative blog doesn't count because it's collaborative. And as such it doesn't count.

I've had many entries and numerous comments. Good, bad and some even plain horrendous. I've changed my writing style from short, abbreviated form to the more traditional tone of writing.

Life has given me the ups and downs, the good and bad, the exciting and boring (yadda ... yadda ... you get my drift.), some of them were written in to just throw things out of my chest.

Damn.

This is the most boring post I've ever typed up.

Sorry. You can shoot me now.

Mars and venus

I went to JB for a while today.

No.
Make that from 1 pm to 7 pm. I went in with my colleagues. They wanted to do a bit shopping and I wanted to get away. At least for a day. Well, yeah, it wasn't easy though.

My mother's feeling much better now as compared to last week.

Thank yous to everyone who asked about her condition. Appreciate your concern. And advices.

When I say goodbye

Mother was hospitalised on Sunday evening.

Yesterday afternoon she had her left big toe amputated.

I don't know when she will be discharged. Father told her to get plenty of rest while she's there. To take care of her health and watch her diet. I took urgent leave yesterday. And when I came back today, people have been dispensing advices on how best to not get Mother in hospital again. First and foremost on their minds is the diet and medication. Yupz. Mother, you are so gonna get a brand new diet, courtesy of me. Trust me when I say that enough things / body parts have been lost.

Gosh, I miss my mother. Yeah, I know I see her everyday, call each other every day since the day she was admitted. I still miss her. Especially at night, when I used to run to her room to "bother" her. I know she's be out soon but I just can't hold back the tears and stop them from running free. All the pent up fears and anxiety from Sunday. As I take her round the A&E department before she was finally warded. Her raging fever on Sunday night. She's in pain at times and I wish I could have done something to stop it or take it all away.

My mom, my best friend.

God, I'm such a crybaby.

One for sorrow

I wanted your love, but look what it's done to me
All my dreams have come to nothing
Who would have believed
All the laughter that we shared would be a memory
I cannot count the tears you've cost me
If I could have seen

And do you think of me
And how we used to be ?

Oh, I know you're somewhere else right now
And loving someone else no doubt
Well I'm one for sorrow
Ain't it too too bad
Are you breaking someone else's heart
'cos you're taking my love where you are
Well I'm one for sorrow
Ain't it too too bad about us

I wanted your love, but I got uncertainty
I tried so hard to understand you
All the good it did me
Now the places that we knew remind me of how we were
Everything is just the same
But all I feel is hurt

And do you ever think of me
And how we used to be ?

Lyrics by : Topham/Twigg/Ellington All Boys Music Ltd
Sung by : Steps (Claire on lead vocals)

Words are not enough

It's Singapore's National Day today. Yupz ... 38 years ago we decided to strike it on our own and fend for ourselves. After the British, Japanese and Malaysians, our colonial masters, we decided well ... enough's enough. What harm could come if we self govern ?

Democracy.

I am watching the NDP at the moment, and I'm thinking, "Things don't change. Much." At least parade wise.

At home everything is so different. I remember how my sisters and I used to tune in every year and go, "Ooh.... Ahhh....". Mother would be watching too. Giving out "useless" facts of what each contingent stand for. Commenting on the differences between the Army, Airforce and Navy. We'd all knew it but she'd go on anyway.

This year, my elder sis is with her family, my younger sis places more importance on her social life and Mother is unwell. So here I am pouring out my woes. Mother has not been well for about 2 weeks now. She's got diabetes type 2 and since her big toe was infected, she's been feverish and nauseated. She hasn't cooked for 3 days because just standing up would make her giddy. I had to cancel or make stupid excuses to any social outings I've made with my friends because if I were to go, there'd be no one around to make sure nothing bad happens. Except for my cats of course.

One can always make new friends but not new mothers.

I 'd asked Mother to go to the doctor. But how could she when just being vertical caused her to see black spots ? She just had her temperature taken. 39.1 degrees Celsius. I felt like calling the ambulance and sending her to the hospital. However, seeing the infected toe, most likely than not, some minor surgery would be required.

Okay. Enough of self misery. Hey people, I'm really sorry for cancelling on our plans. I'd love to go but unless my mother's situation improves, I'd stay away from any at the very last minute. So very sorry.

It's the way you make me feel

For people who have never seen any of Steps music vid, this link will take you there. It might take sometime to load, so please be patient. Only for those with broadband or cable connection (hi-bandwidth). For those with low-bandwidth and would love to see it, please inform me, I can put it up for you.

BTW, people, this is my absolute fav vid from Steps.

Enjoy.

Heartbeat

My nephew's birth is imminent.

Well, at least I am hoping that it would be a boy this time. And no, I have nothing against girls. It's just that it's high time my household have a bouncing baby boy. Funny thing is, all the women wanted a boy. Mother, Elder and Younger Sistah. And me of course. Father on the other hand was hoping it'd be a girl. Another girl ! Imagine the chaotic future. Fights, arguments, jealousies.

Har-har.

But whatever the gender is, most importantly, let the baby be healthy.

Yeap. Considering my sister's disgusting habit, let the child be healthy. Like Ayu.

If you believe

Yay... !

I've managed to turn on the header. Yeah, I know for some of you, it's a no brainner but, hey, I am but a lousy techhie wannabe.

So sue me.

Too weak to resist

So what is the fascination of writing in a weblog ? In recent days, there have been write-ups in the papers regarding the popularity of online diaries / journals among the young. A way of releasing your pent up feelings. And for everyone to read what has been written and generally offer words of sympathies, empathies and encouragements. It helps a lot, especially for people who feels like there is no other avenues to pursuit.

I write in because I like seeing my stuff online.

Yeap, the vainpot that I am.

Damn, I sure can write. And, boy am I glad that I am literate. Thank you modernisation.

Peace, over and out.

Love's got a hold on my heart

Okay, I admit I fib a lot. And I can do it without batting my eyelids.

I am really pretty good at it too.

First of .... I wanna apologise to Samuel. If you find the contents of this entry offensive, sorry, it's not true. Never will be.

So, anyway, two people in my office decided to get together. The irritating bit is that, since these 2 hook up, the rest were trying to matchmake all the single girls. And you guys know that I am single. So to prevent from being set up on a blind date, I told them that I am with somebody. So of course they just had to ask with whom. The first thought that came through was that he will be leaving for the UK soon. And that he's my poly classmate. And so of course they had to ask how long we'd been together. I said since the final year in poly. So again they asked why didn't I go over with him. I replied that he offered to pay but I decline the offer. And then they asked which race, Chinese I said. And Christian. Who will not convert, as I won't too. This ploy is to stop them from asking when my wedding date will be.

Even though I did not named names, the person sounds familiar, right ?

I just have to get this off my chest and head. So that I can forget how reckless I can be. And lying..... is so not my thing.

Right, dear Samuel ???

Hand on your heart

Today is photo taking day for the school. Where students as well as faculty members, dressed up real nice, smiled real big, and posed. So, gone were my usual get up of t-shirts and cargo pants. Welcome pretty blouse and slimming pants (forget heels, event was not big enough to "kill" my feet). So anyway, I smiled. And smiled. And smiled. And smiled. I had to take this massive staff photo with all teachers and non-teaching staff (Corporate & General Offices staff). It was just one bloddy photo but there were like 4 bloddy clicks.

So there I was standing on the stage, with Steph on my left and a teacher on my right (I'd forgotten her name), smiling my most natural smiles. The stage felt like it was gonna give way any second and I can feel beads of perspiration running down the side of my head. Wisps of my hair tried to free themselves from the bun I'd tied. My face felt like it's been deep fried and my smile felt like falling. The photographer then said, "2 more shots, stay, stand still." Or something to that effect. Oh, God ! Thou shalt not call my name in vain

So anyway, my face felt like cracking, my smile turning to a frown and I am like thinking, "Tom Cruise is smiling at me. Gotta smile back. Not gonna close my eyes. Damn! Stupid flash just blinded me." But hell, who am I kidding, that guy's no TC, (this always help to keep my smile up and my eyes open, not easy considering the size of my cheeks), I am one big idiot. Then he said, "Right, all done." Or something to that effect. And I quickly turn right to get off the wobbly platform.

Another year of taken shots. Another picture of my big grinning idiotic face. We'll see if we can improve next year.

That is if I'm still here. Insya Allah.

Tragedy

Earlier today was Games' Day in my school.

The students were let off at around 1.45 pm.

Most teachers were gone by 2 pm.

Admin staff have to work the full day.

I am now waiting for the City Harvest Group to come for their practical session.

They would finish by 6 pm, earliest.

Happy go lucky

When we were young, we had silly ideals about how things work.

I certainly did and remember it so vividly. I used to think that the songs coming out from the radio is actually sung by the singers live. Yeap, like the deejays invite the singers to come in and like sing there and then. Not just their songs but the songs sung by others. I guess my rationale for that is that sometimes when you hear a song at a point in time, it sounded so perfect. When the song is played again. say later in the day, it sounded horribly wrong (Because the deejays do invite other singers to take turns to sing, "live"). Sometimes, I get the idea, the deejays were actually the ones singing all the bloddy songs !

I don't remember when I grew out of this thinking, though. Musta been the time when I was called "stupid", "dumb" & "ignorant". Oh, well.

My best friend's girl

So yeah, just need to spread this message to the masses subtly.

Alex & Emma sucks.

Subtlety is so NOT my strongest point.

Deeper shade of blue

So everything worked out well for Saturday. I went to the movies, I did not meet Fie, booked my Advanced Theory for August 19th, bought sushi (almost 40 bucks worth) dinner, contemplated meeting Samuel for dinner to discuss my UCAS application, watched my taped shows and slept early. How early ? Well, I think it was before 11 pm. Long day. It was nice meeting Shaheeda. Really nice.

Beauty and the beast

I have done something horribly disgusting.

From the top.

Basically, I've made a date to meet Shaheeda so that we can book our Advanced Theory Test date together. It's tomorrow. After that I made no other plans because Shaheeda wasn't free to hang out. So with that in mind, I then made plans with my colleagues to go catch Alex & Emma in town (possibly ??). So then yesterday a light bulb came on and I asked Sha if she wanted to meet up with Fie and I tonight. She said she has to tutor and suggested yesterday's night. I said, short notice but might be possible. So I texted Fie. Waited for response for sometime, then got back to Sha, saying that Fie is MIA. I asked how, she said next week then. Finally received replies from Fie at 6-ish. She said her phone's reception at work is terrible. By the time I received them, I was already home, so there is that.

Anyway, we texted each other and she suggested we go out tomorrow. I said I made plans with my colleagues and invited her to come catch the movie. She said anything, but I felt bad and told her I'd cancelled on my colleagues. So just now when I messaged that I want to cancel, I received no replied. Seemed like I've been given the cold treatment. I guess it's all my fault for agreeing to two dates for the same afternoon. So like, I'm thinking, maybe I can join my colleagues for drinks and then blow them off to meet Fie. Or like, I join them for movies and meet Fie later ? But Fie would like have to wait and that bites. So the only real possibility is to drag Fie to the movie and say my goodbyes later.

It's all about compromise, you see.

Last thing on my mind

I had an early night last night. Lights out by 21 00 hours. Reason ? Ayu did not visit.

It was a good because, I really looked like a Mama Panda. No joke !

Too busy thinking about my baby

If I'd activated the title header, this post would read Too busy thinking about my baby. In fact since the beginning of this month, all my posts were titled. All the titles are the titles of Steps' and H & Claire's songs. It seems as though all these songs totally relate to the content of my posts. Or.... Maybe my line of thinking and writing was aligned to the headers ? Maybe, but it's a nice thought anyways. Just a tribute to the greatest pop group in the last decade. Yeah, loved them to bits...

Anyway, the baby in question is of course .... hmm .... what, ah... ?

No matter, just to show the world I am alive and well ...

Mr Bed is calling me. One must always heed Mr Beddy Bed ....

G'nite, peeps .....

I know him so well

I made a new friend yesterday. I was bathing when I received the first text message (no, I did not bring my cell into the bathroom). In fact 3 messages were waiting for my perusal. One was from Wah Ying, another from my cuz, Saliha and the 3rd one (actually this was first message received...) was from this friend. It said, "Are you helena?"... And here I am thinking, "Hmm....that's weird. Wonder if it's Kavitha." Well, her name popped into my head because we recently made contact and so I thought she just got my number from dear Samuel. So I replied, "Yeah. Who is this?". And so one message lead to another and then presto.... I made a new friend. Initially I thought it was a prank because I can name a few people who would love to get back at me. Not that I am that much of a prankster. Just.... You know, the fun factor. *winks*

Anyhow, WY's message was to ask if I'd be interested to join a get together today. I was thinking of giving it a miss but I open my big mouth (actually, I texted) and asked if Samuel wanna go. He said he might go if his presence is not shunned by the rest. I said (my big mouth came into play) I will go if he's going and guess what ? He is. So I can't wriggle out of this date. Hmmm... Damnation... ?

So well, I will go... As soon as I'm done here. At work.

Now I have to get back to calculating the results of the teachers' survey. As in students fill up a feedback form of the teachers that taught them. Sure reminds me of my poly days when we gave bad comments and grading for lecturers who "tekan" us. Harhar... Thank goodness I hate teaching....

Experienced

I have just polished off a piece of choc. Now I feel a little sick. The kinda you get when you had too much milky stuff. The choc was good, there were nuts sprinkled on top. And loads and loads of choc. *groans*

I keep telling myself, I have just gotta write in here. Must......write......or.........else........must.....write........

So Jer got the b-dae card I sent her. She got it yesterday and texted me to tell me she received it. I like surprises like that. Although I have to keep pinching myself to stop me from blabbing it all to her. But it was good. This feeling. Hehe... Must be the choc talking now..

Been busy helping people from the other departments. Not that I am not willing, it's just that I know being a Jane of all trades would make me a mistress of none. Anyway, will have to cut short my inconsequential natter. It's been raining on and off throughout the day now, my bladder is giving me grieve. Gotta go appease it before I go off or else the bus journey would be one hellish ride. Pack my stuff then I'm outta this hell hole I've put myself in.

P/S: I am kidding, I love the hell I'm in....

Better the devil you know

I am officially in H - E - L - L !!!!!

My eyelids felt like they have been infused with lead. My mouth felt like it had been filled with cotton (none of the candy sort). My brain wanted to give up functioning. I want to curl up in a fetal position and close my eyes. *yawns* *stretch*

I pay the price for sleeping at 1 am and waking up at 6 am. And today is the day when I leave at 6-ish (most often than not, it will be almost 7 pm when I make my move).

Indecision. I want to go to Far East Plaza KFC to apply for a part time job. Do I need another job ???

Books. You guys should read Prey by Michael Crichton. Damn good read (reason why I slept late last night. Was trying to finish the story, couldn't "lights off" if I didn't !) !!

Summer of love

These past few days, I've noticed the flowers in bloom. All the rich hues of red, pink, yellow, orange and violet. Especially if you travel along the ECP, there is this type of plant that flowers really magnificiently. When it's in bloom, nothing can stop the array of colours. It's a pretty common plant here in Singapore. You can find it most often at the sides of the overhead bridges. The sad thing is I don't know it's name. It has got very thin branches with thorns. The leaves are light green, almost heart shape. The flowers are pretty fragile and can be crushed easily. Not forgetting the lilies. Wait..... Are there even lilies planted at the side of the roads here ???