Me + You = Alone

I've had butterflies in my stomach since I woke up this morning. As I got ready for work, I keep thinking of horrible, nasty scenarios happening at work, at home, with him.

I was restless on the school bus, unlike my tiredness nor my buzz a week ago. My mind working overdrive, I felt that something bad is going to happen. Maybe, today could be my last day in this realm ?

When I received a phone call early in the morning regarding an overstaying issue, I thought, hey this could be the cause of the unease. Well, I settled the issue as "cleanly" as possible and I thought the butterflies would quiet down. How foolish of me. So I feedback this issue to the originating party and guess what ? I'm still the one at fault. Why ? Because I've been informed that the applicant would remain in Singapore throughout the application process.

I felt so, demoralised ? Saddened ? Affected ? It seems like every bit that goes wrong (or rather not right) always fall on my shoulders. I guess, I had enough of being a fall guy ? I want to give as good as I take but if you guys know me, I'm a wimp. Coward. Courageless.

So.

I'm gonna sit in that corner and have a bit of a cry.

Just leave me alone for now.