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Sunday, September 21, 2008

She says

Come on, cut him a break. Let him do what he needs to do. Don't be such a nag. You are not his wife nor his fiancee. You are just a girlfriend. You are expendable. Stop acting like such an old lady. He's an adult, he can take care of himself. He has a mother, he doesn't need another one here. He had been living on his own for the past few years. He knows what's good for him and you know for sure he will not wilfully hurt himself. Nor let others hurt him. Take a chill pill and go to sleep. You need to wake up in less than 2 hours.

Stupid woman. Nag, nag, nag. Then throw tantrums. Shut up and stop being so controlling. You will drive him away. There is tolerance and then there is tolerance. Don't fuck up this relationship. You are a good person, stop feeling sorry for yourself and cock up something that is good for your soul. Quiet those voices of doubts.

If you are truly unhappy, then break up. If he can't be the one to make you smile when you wake up, then cut off all ties. If everything he says or do irritates you then it's better you save both the misery.

He makes you laugh, he makes you cry. He's the solidity you have been craving these past few months. If there is a lesson you must learn, he really cares a whole lot for you. Why the fuck then does he put up with all your nonsense and idiosyncracies ?

Stupid, silly woman. Remember the heartache and pain when you decided that enough was enough a few months ago ? How you cannot bring yourself to sever your bond with him ? Remember how unwilling he was to let you go ? How he threatened to go away and live a life of solitude when you know he's a social creature ? Remember how then you cannot live to see him live like that ?

So.

Shut up and go to sleep. Talk to him later. Face to face is the best. I've said my piece. If you choose not to heed, then I can tell you that before this year is out, you will be a bitter, sad old woman. Rejoice and love him without conditions nor censure or critcisms.

Close your eyes now,
Go to sleep now,
I'll turn down the light ...

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