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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Duct tape me

Duct tape my mouth.

Gouge out my eyes.

Cut out my tongue.

Break all the bones in my fingers.

I can withstand all this pain but not the pain I inflicted on my guy on purpose. It's like there are 2 thoughts ruling my head. The insecure, needy one and the rational, practical one. I hate me. I wish I could stop doing this ugly, spiteful things to the person I care most.

I don't deserve the happiness you had all ready for me. Asking for forgiveness is not the solution. Grovelling and begging for second chances are wasted on me. I need a change of mindset. Please God, could you let me die and end the mental anguish to all the people who love me ?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

yo girl, everyone deserves happiness. Communication is the key to a relationship and Trust is the element to strengthen the bond. There may be times that you will doubt abt Trust as it cannot be measured.. Whatever it is, communicaton is impt.. In life, there are bound to have obstacles and it is these abstacles that allows both of you to grow stonger.. And there are times where some one just have to pass by both of you to make a piece of memories/ history in your story... Whether both of you can enter into the next chapter of each other's life... Well, this depends on the key elements that i have said above..

Hope you get your happiness... =)

TS