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Are you an accidental flirt? Ten ways you can unwittingly lead a man on

Men often believe you're flirting with them even when you're not. Here, Mark Mason explains the ten ways you can unknowingly send out the wrong signal

1. Putting one more kiss at the end of an email than he did. Women are naturally friendly - if flirting is a mountain, they're always walking in the lower foothills. But men want to get to the peak as soon as possible. Your extra 'x' was done without thinking. He assumes you're starting an auction of kisses that will end up with the two of you in bed.

2. Saying you like his shirt. The average man doesn't notice clothes - if you notice his, he'll think it's because you want to see them on your bedroom floor.

3. Asking questions about his girlfriend. You're just being nosy about his love life. He thinks you want a walk-on part in it.

4. Talking about your own relationship problems. You find it easy to discuss these things. Men don't, so he'll imagine that you're auditioning replacements for your boyfriend.

5. Approaching him at a party. Men see starting a conversation as the first stage of seduction. They can't understand why you'd do it just to be friendly.

6. Touching his arm as you talk. Women are more tactile than men - they forget that testosterone can be brought to the boil by the merest brush of a female hand.

7. Teasing him. You're doing it simply because you can, and it amuses you. He sees it as an early phase of the mating ritual.

8. Ignoring a call on your mobile when you're with him. You hit 'divert' because it's your boss and you don't want to talk to her - but the man's ego tells him you're captivated by his witty conversation.

9. Re-applying your make-up. A fresh coat of lip-gloss makes you feel good about yourself. He thinks it's being done to attract him.

10. Dancing with him. It's an Abba record - you'd dance with the nearest hat-stand - but your partner in boogie assumes that you want his body.

Of course, all these are things you might do if you are really flirting. But even if you're not, don't worry too much - wouldn't life be boring if you couldn't laugh at men?

From Understanding Men @ ivillage

Power is out

2215 hrs 29 June 2004, Tuesday

Helena's mind

BUGGER !!!
We paid the electricity bill didn't we ????
Uh-oh .... SHORT CIRCUIT !!!!
Hmmm .... Now which page did I stopped reading ????
Where is my farken bookmark ????
Where is my farken torchlight ?????
Where is my farken candles ??????
Better go and see how the others are doing.
Ahhhhh .... FARKEN HOT, sia !!!!!

Yeah, caught in the blackout that lasted for about 20-25 minutes.

Too much of a good thing

Books overload !!!

I was so bored that I decided to hit the library yesterday. Picked up 4 books on top of the 9 I'd set aside to read. So now I've got so much reading to do. All pleasure reading ! It's really crazy ! I am so unbelievably greedy ! Add on to the fact I have to do a refresher on my Immunology and Analytical Science before the start of my new term. I just can't phantom how I can achieve all this by this week. Well, I can at least prioritise my time. For example, I can try to clear the books I am co-currently reading. I've started on one library book, in the midst of 2 other books. One of the books I have to finished it by this weekend in light of the fact I will be lending the book to a colleague. Also, I'm determined to start my perusal of my poly notes of said subjects, just so I don't panic when end of term comes around.

See people. I'm like so busy. Bzzz ..... Bzzz .....

So if anyone wants to meet up, I'm free between 8 am to 5 pm. I'll be on MSN. Hell, yeah I will !!!

New term, new episodes

*stretchhhhhhhhhh*

Today is the first day of the third term. This is the period of time when all the flurry and slurry of activities unite to bring a whole lot of exhaustive days. This is the time when teachers are working at an accelerated speed to finish off whatever syllabus that needs to be covered before the big O's and A's. This is the time when they act like jerks and piss me off.

Oh wait.

They are almost already acting like big babies and are already pissing me off.

What am I saying here ?

I'm already pissed, no matter who acts like jerks or otherwise ! *eye rolls*

*tick-tock* *tick-tock*

My fuse is short. The stick of dynamite is going to blow soon.

*tick-tock* *tick-tock*


*breathes in* *breathes out*

"I am in charge of my faculties. I WILL not let the people around me rule my life.
I am a calm and rational person. I will get through this"

End of June will signify the beginning of July.
End of July will signify the beginning of August.
End of August will signify the beginning of September.
End of September will mean that I've worked here for 3 years.
Time for me to seek other employment. Come January, I will have hoped to be somewhere I belong.


*breathes in* *breathes out*

France's ass got whipped .....

...... just as I had expected ! There is justice in this world after all !


Go Greece !

Kicked out ... pun very much intended

Balderdash.

Yeah, that was what went through my head when I heard the result of the Portugal-England match this morning. I was already psyching myself for the loss but nothing actually beats hearing it from someone else. It makes it all too real. I think I have my head up in the clouds for so long that I didn't realise my feet had ceased to touch the ground.

I believe there is something psychologically wrong with me. Shitz ! At times I feel so utterly dejected and useless and I will think that I am better off by ending everything. Then there will be moments when I am so "normal" that I know there is something wrong in that. How can someone be "normal" and think that is abnormal ?

Really.

I fancy myself an all independent, with head screwed on tight person but I am not. I feel like lashing out and brutalising anything in my path. Pent up frustration that has been simmering beneath the surface, just waiting for it to boil over. Then I would feel like there is so much more I want to accomplish. I don't want to die as I am now. Poor, sad and ignored fool.

I need a shrink. I need time out to figure and put things and my life into perspective. I am so afraid that I would say the wrong things to the people I care about or worse, end up physically hurting them. I am so darn afraid that I will just do something nasty and claim insanity. But then this would indicate premeditation. Like I seriously need help.

Through to the quarterfinals ....

Yeah, that's the English side for you. They played a much better in the match earlier this morning. I caught the last half hour of the game and by then the scoreline was already 2-1 to England. After which Rooney scored and then I was wide awake. The guys were much more at home during today's game. Wonder if they can keep their cool in the Portugal meet. Afterall, they have nothing to lose, except for a few million disgruntled, rowdy fans from all over the world !

School's term will begin next Monday. What a short, short June break it was for me ! The days seemed to bleed into one another. Must have been the late nights as a result of Euro 2004. Mans, I have not even slacked enough in my prep room !

I was supposed to have an extra practical class this morning. But at around 9.30 am, the teacher in charge called to say the class has been cancelled because she was not feeling well. And I'd already prepared the solutions for her class ! Down the drain they will go. AGAIN ! You know, I am really sick and tired of the teachers wasting the chemicals here. Yeah, I know the school's paying for it but I'm under a stringent budget ! I cannot happily discard the unused portions of the solutions ! And the teachers here are a bunch of kiasus. Seemed to me everything had to be prepared in large quantities. If the student numbers are high, hell, I don't mind but otherwise, can you imagine how much is wasted ? I try to maybe save by asking them if they need the same solutions within the week and if they do, then good. If not, then down the sewage it goes !

Well, my new course term is starting soon. I'd better prepare myself mentally. Save me the hassles of unnecessary bitchings later on !

Moving on to more important things

Right.

I would have written this post earlier, like right after the game but 1) the PC was not left on after I last used it and 2) I might be awake the whole night if I didn't take the opportunity to sleep any earlier.

Lethargically lucky win by England. I mean seriously, have you seen a slower game than what was played last night ? I was so freaking irritated by the inanne back passing. After the first goal was scored, you can see the English players were just contented to sit back and defend the lead. It was most irritating because you can see that they did play some good football, attack wise. However, their passes were horrendous ! They can't even keep possession ! That is why every so often the ball was played forward, it would be quickly be back in the middle of the field. It was so freaking irritating !

I'll always believe in PPF. Passing, possession and forward. That is good football. That is why Brazil will continue to be world champions and England just plain lucky to even enter major tournaments.

"The English are the creators of the game, but they are still learning how to play the game." And that my good readers are why they will never win any major trophies !

Oh, by the way, I'm talking about soccer. And rightfully so.

Don't hate me .....

..... Just because I am a contest junkie. And I have my winnings to show for the "dedication". Seriously, don't hate me. I'd won myself 100 bucks worth of The Carpenters music stuff over on Gold 90.5 FM. All I had to do was to listen out for any Carpenters songs from 10 am - 8pm, identify all the 4 songs played and sms my answers to the station. To my surprise, Hubert called me back.

Okay.

I am showing off now. Guess I'm just lucky !

Restlessness has to be appeased

Lately I have been feeling a little restlessness. The air feels charged all the time. It's as if I had missed something but I can't exactly put a finger to it. Initially I thought the restlessness was due to the fact that there is a caffeine overload in my system. That or the fact that I've spent give or take 4 hours of sleep everyday. I come to work sleepy. Drink my morning coffee, perk up and by midday, I'm nursing a throbbing headache. I did try to sleep earlier. When I reach home, I was ready to konk out at 8 but I usually don't. So by the time 1 am rolls pass, I am so wide awake, you would have thought it's 1 pm. I have serious puffy eye bags. I just can't get rid of them. My eyes looked sunken. Too bad the rest of me decided not to go the same way.

I feel like going away. Short trip to anywhere. But I am so low in the cash department, it's utterly inconceivable. So every night I don't sleep early, the later it seemed to pay day. Where is the excitement of the term break ? A time that has always signify lesser workload and easy money ? Ahhh ... But nothing should come easy. I read on a friend's blog page, if you have to work hard to obtain something, the better the value of the achievement. The more difficult the challenges are, with numerous obstacles blocking the way or popping up all of a sudden, the more valuable the lesson is. But easy come, easy go.

I wished I never have to grow up. Never to have seen how horrible and nasty some people can be. But I would then have missed out on the kindness and generosity of the good majority. I am thankful that I chose to surround myself with people who are truthful and honest. Agreed that sometimes we might not share the same tastes in certain things but we had learned to accept the other party as a unique individual.

I remember last Friday night when I was out with Elaine, Fie and Sha. We were sitting in Coffeebean just talking. All of us were exhausted but we didn't want to leave quite so soon. At least not for me. I know I was super exhausted because I only had about 2 hours sleep since I was up studying for my exam the night before. Even so, I was, to be honest, wishing we could just stay out the whole night. I was wishing that we weren't all working because it made us seemed so grown up. I don't feel as though I'd grown much. Chronologically, yes I have aged but I still feel like I'm 16. Sad, huh ? I didn't even like me when I was 16 ! I was so full of insecurities and idiosyncrasies. Which is not telling that all those self doubts have disappeared completely. They are still there lurking beneath the person I tried to be.

Being alive does not need to be so trying. You know what is funny ? I think maybe not everyone can live. I mean not in the physical sense as life and death. It's more on the psychological living. Not everyone can pyschologically live their life to the fullest. Up until their physical being expire. Physically I am alive, heart's beating: pumping the juices of life throughout, psychologically I was never even "born".

La Luna ~ Belinda Carlisle

I remember when I met you
All the stars were hanging in mid-air
In those moments, nothing mattered
But the way you caught me in your stare
We were walking, we were talking
We were laughing about the state of our lives
How our fates brought us together
As the moon was rising in your eyes

On and on the night was falling
Deep down inside us
On and on a light was shining right through

Chorus

Ah la luna la luna
The night that we fell under the spell of the moon
Ah la luna la luna
The light that will bring me back to you
The light of la luna

In the hotels, in the cafes
All the world was mad with romance
In the harbour, moonlit water
All the ships were swaying in a dance
Then you held me and you kissed me
And I knew I had to be with you
You didn't ask me, you just took me
To the tiny bed in your tiny room

On and on the band was playing
A song of surrender
On and on the sun would soon break through

Repeat Chorus 2x

Bridge

Now I walk along the streets of Marseilles
The winter sky is cold and grey
And I don't know why I left you that day
And I don't know where you are

Repeat Chorus to fade

Charmless Man ~ Blur

I met him in a crowded room
Where people go to drink away their gloom
He sat me down and so began, the story of a charmless man
Educated the expensive way, he knows his claret from a beaujolais
I think he'd like to of been Ronnie Kray
But then nature didn't make him that way

He thinks he's educated, airs those family shares
Will protect him that we will respect him
He moves in circles of friends
Who just pretend that they like him
He does the same to them, and when you put it all together
There's the model of a charmless man

He knows the swingers and their cavalry
Says he can get in anywhere for free
I began to go a little cross eyed
And from this charmless man I just had to hide

He talks at speed he gets nose bleed
He doesn't see his days
Are tumbling down upon him
And yet he tries so hard to please
He's just so keen for you to listen
But no one is lstening
And when you put it all together
There's the model of a charmless man

He thinks he's educated, airs those family shares
Will protect him that we will respect him
And yet he tries so hard to please
He's just so keen for you to listen
But no one is lstening
And when you put it all together
There's the model of a charmless man

"That so sucks .... !"

Yes, it did. Sucked. I had such high hopes for a thumb down kind of blog for all those Les Bleus supporters. I was prepared to go all ..nyah..nyah..nyah.. on every single one of them. I was ready to write this with a big hearty laugh. Unfortunately, I was the one being laughed at. And them ? They are the buggers having the last laugh.

Unbelievable and a thoroughly insipid match. I was expecting a draw but a win would have been a bonus. All the way through, the Three Lions were leading by a goal to nil. But who'd have guessed the outcome until the final whistle was blown. 2 goals in 3 minutes of extra time. Tell me that did NOT so sucks ????

Sheesh ....

Really people, that is so totally unfair. Who could you blame ? The guys who brought Viera and Henry down ? Zidane for scoring both goals ? Or the ineptness and cockiness of the English ? Personally, I blame the arrogance of Becks. If he had not missed that kick spot, I'd think the French Legion would have just given up, their bubbles deflated and walked out of the stadium with their arrogant tails between their legs ! That would have shown them which side of the Atlantic is with the football prowess.

Then again, it's so over and done with now. No point arguing and ranting about it half way across the world. Let them think themselves invincible. The fall from grace would be so much swifter, harder and more painful. Then I'll have the last laugh !

I can't sleep now so I guess I'll just spend the rest of the hour trudging through the myraid doldrums of other people's blog pages.

*sigh* *sigh*

Arrrgghh .....

..... Arrrgghhh .....

I have less than 2 days before my first paper ....

..... Arrrggghhh .....

Sad movies ...

.... always makes me cry.

Anyway, I've been swamped with way too many mindless things.

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My cousin, Julia is now someone's wife !!! Congratulations dear !!! The solemnisation ceremony was great. The wedding itself was wonderful ! You are so gorgeous !!! Sorry, I couldn't be there earlier than I promised to be. Will catch up with you soon. Meanwhile, enjoy married life !!!
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Right now, I have to get back to more mindless things.

Stuck in class with no buddies ....

Yeah, no one to chat with me. I have a bitch of a headache. I am so flunking my assignments. Not to mention my exams. I am hungry beyond believe. And broke too. This is just the first day of June but it's the worst month for me by far. Yeah, I need to fast forward this month !!! All the elements had conspired against me. I have a lot of reading and playing catch up to do. Life sucks for me. Really sucky !