Rain on my face, feels soo lovely

Well, I wanted to go Taka after work to find Mother's gift but it was pissing rain after work.

Let me just state that it's not a good idea to wait out the rain. You never know what time the heavens will decide to stop pissing the earth.

Lucky for me to have gotten the mug and wrapping paper yesterday. One less worry, no ?

You know, I do wonder whay do I go through all this trouble. I will still be "stabbed" once I lose my usefulness. Such is life.

Money come, money go

I received the cheque for three hundred plus for the SAT invigilation today. It's kinda nice to put in a bit more dosh into my account after settling all the bills and payouts. I'm planning to use the bit of moolah to get a new tv for the room. Haha ... Together with the hundred bucks Taka voucher, I hope to be able to get a couple of nice things to spruce up the room. We'll see, yeah ?

Making Up Your Mind

I spent the whole day reading. My favourite author surfaces again. This time the JM's book I borrowed from BECL was published earlier this year. I like the overall story but I figured who's gonna end with whom the first 10 minutes of reading. A bit disappointing in a sense because JM always make sure we won't start guessing until at least half way through the book.

I guess that there is only so much sizzling chemistry one can create after that many books. One tends to try really hard not to repeat scenes. I guess my favourite of all the JM's books I've read so far is still Millie's Fling. Her guy's hot there. *sizzles*

Saturday, I'm in love !

Or rather, in pain.

Love and pain comes together. We have always done some things that had caused us pain. Be the pain physical or emotional, we need the sado-masochism to survive. Many a times we find that we are incomplete if we have total bliss.

With that joy, we will know the drop in feeling will arrive, be it sooner or later. That is how the human body works. We have our highs when the feel good hormones course through our blood vessels, affecting both the cells and nervous system. Then once the feel good hormones get used up, we fall. Down low, so low that some times we have the tendency to think of weird, self pitying thoughts.

Case in point, me.

So PMS is the major cause of the moodiness ? Wrong. It's mainly how the people around you behave that contributes to the major cow-like behaviour. I will be the first to say that how bad (or good) I act is dependent on the crowd around me at the moment. So.

Three words for this weekend:

LEAVE ME ALONE

Here's to the good times

Well ... First day back at work after the long, long break. It was nice to be missed at work. Heh.

So anyways, I went yesterday evening, just before the rain poured down. Bought the book voucher for Y and decided to meet up with Kav. I went round to Centrepoint where she was just done from her meet up with Chloe. Walked around a bit, then she mentioned she wanted to go down to Hartford to pay for her Convo event. I suggested that we went anyways since we were already out.

Then guess who was there as well ?

Chloe !

Coincidental. Why ? Well, it was just before when we were at Centrepoint, Kav suggested I go say hello to her at Coffeebean since she was meeting her friend there. When we popped by Coffeebean, she had left and so I told Kav that if we were fated to meet, we will see each other.

Fate, or what ? Hehe ... So the girls settled their stuff (Kav - paying for extra tix for the Convo & Chloe - to not attend the Convo and find out how to get her cert), while I stood around like a berk. The cute fella was on duty and I tried to act nonchalant. Not very successful, coz I was trying hard to be coy and hmmmm ... flirty ? Well ... No matter.

Eventually the matter got settled and we went our separate ways. Chloe, back to office and Kav and I back home (have to work tomorrow, you know !).

Wonder when we'll meet again ...

It's a nice long soak

Hey, hey ...

I am on leave today. It's pretty quiet compared to yesterday's festivities. I know, I know ... I relished the quiet times.

The eldest niece cut school today. The excuse was because the other family's gonna go visiting. WTH, mans ! Whatever happened to the weekends ? Don't they ever think ? Teaching kids to cut school, even if it's kindie ? Come on people, you have to teach them young, no ? Sheesh ... !

On the plus side, it's pay day today ! Yay !!!

It's threatening to rain. I need to get something for Y for her final b-day pressie.

*crosses fingers*

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri !!

Really people. After the full month of Ramadhan, we've meet up with Syawal. The month that signifies celebration, love, happiness and joy. Good deeds and thoughts for all. Forgiveness asked and given.

To all my friends whom I've not contacted for long, I seek your forgiveness for my lapses. To those who had pissed me off, be it before, now and future, whatever. You do what you want. You answer to your God.

To whose with kind wishes, thank you so very much. Happy Pub Hol, all !!

The last day

And so we have arrived to the last day of the fasting month.

What an experience for me. As always, it was an invigorating month. Willpower and faith and belief. What a blessing.

Thank you for providing me an opportunity to be tested.

The Mamas & The Papas ~ Monday, Monday

Monday, Monday, so good to me
Monday mornin', it was all I hoped it would be
Oh Monday mornin', Monday mornin' couldn't guarantee
That Monday evenin' you would still be here with me

Monday, Monday, can't trust that day
Monday, Monday, sometimes it just turns out that way
Oh Monday mornin' you gave me no warnin' of what was to be
Oh Monday, Monday, how could you leave and not take me

Every other day, every other day
Every other day of the week is fine, yeah
But whenever Monday comes, but whenever Monday comes
A-you can find me cryin' all of the time

Monday, Monday, so good to me
Monday mornin', it was all I hoped it would be
But Monday mornin', Monday mornin' couldn't guarantee
That Monday evenin' you would still be here with me

Every other day, every other day
Every other day of the week is fine, yeah
But whenever Monday comes, but whenever Monday comes
A-you can find me cryin' all of the time

Monday, Monday, can't trust that day
Monday, Monday, it just turns out that way
Oh Monday, Monday, won't go away
Monday, Monday, it's here to stay
Oh Monday, Monday
Oh Monday, Monday

Out again

As yesterday, I went out again. With the mom and elder sis.

Still looking for shoes. Also, I needed to return a library book. So off we went to search for the said heels, at the shops around the bus interchange. Within 5 minutes at the first shop, my sis snagged herself a pair of wedge. Argghhh ... We could have saved this trouble yesterday, eh ?

No matter, we had moments of fun. So we then went round looking for nice heels for Ayu. She said that she want to get boots. Boots with heels. Phwoar ! My niece, the femme fatale !

Then we headed off to Geylang Serai, hoping to get nice cookies and shoes there. Well, half of the items were accomplished with not much time wasted. I am such an easy shopper. :D

And then we went home. But not before the mom queued for some nice Otah and Pulut Panggang.

On the bus ride home, a little hitch. Apparently another passenger got into a fracas with the bus driver. We were just a few metres away from the bus stop we boarded the bus and then we had to stop for thirty freakin' minutes. That set my ETA by at least forty minutes back ! My Veronica Mars !!!

The stupid passenger was stupid enough to argue with the driver. Just freakin' tap your freakin' EZ-Link card, you old fart ! Men are so stupid ! As a result, all the passengers have to take another bus of the same service later.

Come on, it's freakin' 5 pm in the evening and everyone wanted to get home in time for the breaking fast. Again, stupid men. Why ? Because suddenly, everyone was blaming the bus driver. Freakin' hell. Mob mentality, people. Chill !

So then a bus conductor was despatched. After which the police got involved. *sighs*

And then we left them behind as another bus came along. A free ride, until we had to pay. We paid with our time, yo !

Bushed. Whacked.

Oh my sweetness. I am absolutely shattered ! Exhausted, weary to the tips of my toes.

Yeah, that's because I've been walking about Orchard Road today. With the mom, elder sis and the 2 eldest nieces.

The main excuse ? To buy new Hari Raya heels for the sis and nieces. I was also planning to get a belated pressie for Aaliyah and scout around for something nice for Kav. First stop was to Taka, hoping to spend my vouchers.

Right.

HELL ! Expensive items, even my sis was cheesed off ! Then we started walking, Lucky Plaza, Paragon, Far East Plaza.

Madness !

Dragging the poor nieces around like a sack of rice.

Decided to break fast outside but in all of our eagerness to get a momento for the day out, missed the boat and all tables were occupied. Disgusting, these people ! As a result, the mom was pissed. And sulky. Not helping are the nieces, especially Ayu. Eeks ! Put the fire out, pronto !

Finally we made a wee stop at Bugis Village. Nice place, my sis got herself 3 pairs of dangly. Nice, really nice.

Took a bus home and saw Geylang Serai was swamped with people. Hoardes of people walking about, albeit aimlessly.

*tsk*

Happy Deepavali !!!

Hey, hey .. the first of the Pub Hol this week.

To all my Hindu friends, Happy Deepavali. And Happy New Year (in advance !) !!!

Come then ... all the goodies ... Invite me, invite me .... :D

So much to do, so little time

What an agonising journey home !

Silly me had completely forgotten that today is the eve of a Pub Hol ! Deepavali's tomorrow ! Goodness, and there I was stuck in Little India because traffic was absolutely horrendous ! I'd said it again, horrendous !!!

Never again. Some one please throttle me on the head should I ever be tempted to venture out on the eve of a Pub Hol !

Seriously !

Ooh ... My eyes

I'd been staring at the monitor for the past hour or so.

Sending email to people is pure hell. Especially for over twenty people. How do spammers do it ? Oh, they have 'bots to them hard work for them.

Announcements sent via email for the internal audit next week for the auditees.

Then there are some yokels with maxed out mailbox.

Seriously people.

Clean up your freakin' mailbox, yeah ? Like how difficult can it be ?

Now instead of informing everyone and finishing that task today, I have to re-send to a couple of jokers whose mailbox were full.

*sighs*

But It Sure Is Hard Enough

It sure is hard work trying to come out with a good audit plan. Everytime I am close to settling, there are plenty of other things to complete. Each task more important than the one before.

I'll try my best with all the distractions abound.

Wish me luck !

Play nice, be nice

So I did.

I almost applaud myself for being such a nice, congenial personality today. So after the exam, I settled my most happy face and walked out together.

Perhaps I am deluding myself, but then there are people who have been "sent" to test you.

By God, I will pass the test !!

I'm exhausted. Gonna crash now. Talk later !

The Name of the Game

He talked to me.

Evaluation, appraisal, whatever but it was 2 hours long. Some of the things said did make sense.

I tried not to be bitter. I tried not to seethe. Others just flew over my head. I nodded obligingly, hoping to get over it asap. No such luck.

He had time to burn but I didn't. Only I was too polite to say.

The BBS was on half day today, good I said. Pretending to care, only that I don't give a FF. So, whatever.

My brain cells, God. I am demented, okay I know that.

So gotta go back to work. I need proper rest.

Ghost Trains

Of course, it's all my fault.

Well, I came back from leave today and got a "dressing down" from BBS. Indecisive, can't make decisions.

Bull !

Now I know. People play that kind of game all the time. All the damn time. So you pretend innocence and complain to the boss. Big freakin' deal. I now know that perhaps I should play the same game. Whatever. Cold shoulders won't work, would it ? I'll just pretend, then. Part of me will smirk at the efforts.

Please, not even an olive branch extended. Not even a word to tell me I've been "reported". But, seriously. Whatever.

Uptight

A pretty nondescript day. Got a couple of calls from work.

I've done a couple of things that needed to be done. I've updated my podcasts on my ipod. Strange thing is that I've been listening to Nature podcasts. English accents, bring them on.

I was just telling Y and R yesterday how Lara Croft Tomb Raider: The Cradle of Life was one hot movie. Angelina Jolie pulled a mean English accent although there were times when you can detect her American accent. Gerard Butler's character as Terry Sheridan was hot. Love the Irish brogue. He's so hot, he sizzled ! :D

The story line was so-so but the African rainforest shot was excellent. Gorgeous leads, incredible scenery, challenging scenes, what more could a girl ask for ?

Blue canvasses

What a no-brainner.

I bet you my left nut they were bitching about me. Well, not all about me, of course. I am not egoistical like that. And no, I don't have any nuts, of any kind as I am writing this. So there, I know. Come on, how obvious can people get ? Closed door, the who's who converging in one enclosed space. I must be nuts not to think some cookout story is about to come out.

Rationalise.

I am paranoid. Check. Discussion of the haze. Check. Photo taking glory. Check.

Somehow, it just revolves on the fact that she's right and everybody else be damn. So. Whatever. All I know is that before long, another newly imposed policy will be hanging on our door. It happened to R, and I bet you my right nut that partial oversight was not even partitioned to them. But, whatever right ? As long as we are made to look like shit. And inefficient. As always, we are the inefficient ones.

Long hours in the office ? We are inefficient. Avoidable mistakes ? We are inefficient. Not standing around chit-chatting ? We are inefficient. If efficiency is our motto, we would leave work late anyway, after spending 2 hours bitching aka coffeeshop sessions.

So there. I ranted. My blog, my prerogative. But then again, with or without me writing, I get bitched anyways. But, whatever right ? Who gives a shit, eh ?

Oh, you make me dizzy

I have officially finished reading the books under Y's card. Well, with the exception of JM's NKB, what with the missing and torn pages, I am done with 3 books in under a week ! Yay, for me. I would have finished earlier if not for the fact I'd put off reading SB's WH and JM's FFY for a few days.

So enough about the chick lit. I have just started on Jonathan Kellerman's Rage. Pretty good, as always. Got me hooked good. I am now breaking for Veronica Mars on the gogglebox. Surprisingly good characterisation, that show.

Right. Talk soon.

Hazy, Lazy Saturday Night

It's everywhere.

It's worse that the irritating mobile users hanging around buses.

It leaves people red-eyed and with breathing difficulties.

As you have guessed by now.

It's the dreaded four lettered H word.

H-A-Z-E

*shudders*

PSI reading = 150

*shudders*

Pretty in pink

I wore a baju kurung today.

It's not just any old baju kurung. Admittedly it is at least a couple of years old but it's still brand new. I have worn it a sum total of ... (drum rolls) One !

Amazing but true, today was the first time I wore the baju, having bought it 2 Hari Rayas ago.

Compliments, sincere or otherwise were lobbed towards me. So what's a girl to do ?

Preen. Pose. Curtsy. Smile winningly. Put out a half wave.

Thank you. Thank you.

Stay tuned for more crazy antics next week !

Terminal Headcase

I try to be nice but people take advantage of me.

I try to be nasty but people will stay away from me.

A terminal head case, I am known to be.

Live and let live. I will ignore the jibes, like water off a duck's back. I will grit my teeth and play nice tomorrow.

But for tonight, leave me to stew.

Robbie Williams ~ Misunderstood

I was trying to be misunderstood
But it didn't do me any good
I always seem to start a fight
I'd break my heart to make things right
Let them all fly off
When it comes down it all comes down
And you will not be found
When it's over it's all over
And even if you make a sound

You'll be misunderstood
By the beautiful and good in this city
But none of it was planned
Take me by the hand
Just don't try and understand

Trying to be misunderstood
Another product of my childhood
Still I find myself outside
You can't say I haven't tried
Perhaps I tried too hard

No excuses I won't apologise
Or justify your lies
Come and find me tell them to me
Now look me in the eyes

I'll be misunderstood
By the beautiful and good in this city
But none of it was planned
Take me by the hand
Just don't try and understand

I can't forgive sorry to say
Don't know you're guilty anyway
Isn't it funny how we don't speak
The language of love?

Jennifer Lopez & Marc Antony ~ No Me Ames

Dime porque lloras
De felicidad
Y porque te ahogas
Por la soledad
Di porque me tomas
Fuerte así, mis manos
Y tus pensamientos
Te van llevando

Yo te quiero tanto
Y porque será
Loco testarudo
No lo dudes más
Aunque en el futuro
Haya un muro enorme
Yo no tengo miedo
Quiero enamorarme

No me ames
Porque pienses
Que parezco diferente
Tu no piensas que es lo justo
Ver pasar el tiempo junto

No me ames
Que comprendo
La mentira que seria
Si tu amor no merezco
No me ames
Mas quédate otro día

No me ames
Porque estoy perdido
Porque cambie el mundo
Porque es el destino
Porque no se puede
Somos un espejo
Y tú así serias
Lo que yo de mi reflejo

No me ames
Para estar muriendo
Dentro de una guerra
Llena de arrepentimientos
No me ames
Para estar en tierra
Quiero alzar el vuelo
Con tu gran amor
Por el azul del cielo

No se que decirte
Esa es la verdad
Si la gente quiere
Sabe lastimar

Tú y yo partiremos
Ellos no se mueven
Pero en este cielo
Sola no me dejes

No me dejes, no me dejes
No me escuches
Si te digo "no me ames"
No me dejes, no desarmes
Mi corazón con ese "no me ames"

No me ames, te lo ruego
Mi amargura déjame
Sabes bien, que no puedo
Que es inútil
Que siempre te amare

No me ames
Pues te haré sufrir
Con este corazón que
Se lleno de mil inviernos
No me ames
Para así olvidarte
De tus días grises
Quiero que me ames
Solo por amarme

No me ames
Tú y yo volaremos
Uno con el otro
Y seguiremos siempre juntos
Este amor es como el sol que sale
Tras de la tormenta
Como dos cometas
En la misma estela

No me ames
No me ames
No me ames

No, no me ames
No me ames
No me ames
No me ames

Happy Birthday !!!

One more post before I log off.


Happy Birthday, Sam.


Joy and success to follow where you may walk.

A lifetime of thank yous for the friend you are.

Blessed journey, I wish you all the best.

Due date: 23 October 2006

Lugging around 5 books and a set of 3 piece cookie jars are no mean feats. Especially when 2 of the books are hardbacked and that you have to change buses 3 times. It's a good thing that the whole journey home was fast. The four letter word that is something to hope for at this time of the month.

I am seriously mad. Or greedy. Which ever way you look at it, I have currently 12 books loaned by the generous National Library Board. Today when I went to post the mail, I popped by CCK with Mother and Y. When they went to have their lunch, I went the other way (up) to the smallish NLB branch. And boy, what a trip. I found 3 JM's and an SB books I have not read yet. The JM's are Nadia Knows Best, Falling For You and Good At Games and SB's is White Hot.

Alas ! I have maxed out my borrowal limit just 2 days ago. So I had to resort to something I have never done before outside the family. I simply had to borrow 'em books and so I asked Mother and Y if they could let me loan the books under their membership. Gasps ! Yeah, unthinkable. So anyways, to cut the whole begging scene short (it was really tiny. Minute even. :D), I am now half way through GAG.

I just had to stop and write. Thanks, Y. I promise not to cause undue late returns and subsequent fines. I'll pay if I should incur any, I promise. :D

Best get back to the books then, eh ?

Going on to the last quarter of 2006

How time flies.

It seemed to be zipping by in the flash of light. It's October. The exam month. The month where work's done double time to prevent forwarding to the new year. Weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds past by.

The earth revolves another cycle round the sun. Anyone care to take a listen ?

Nothing good on tv today. Not even Las Vegas tonight. Bum !