Day off in lieu

So here I am. Alone at home. Chilling out with the radio on and the computer plugged in. Signed in to my usual messenger service. Checked out who's online and off we go to our usual routine.

I am planning to take things a wee bit slow today. Read a couple of books. Have a wee bit of me time. Perhaps a little bit of grocery shopping can be done. And the remaining laundry to do, given the state of the skies. Managed a couple of loads earlier. If the sun stays out, then I will clear the final washing load of the day.

Typical day off. I wish Dear was around as well. It will be nice to do coupley things.

Hah.

But he has to go to work. And me ?

I have the day off to do as I wish. And if the mood strikes me, I might not even do the things above. Maybe I will choose to snooze and watch tv and finish off the leftovers from yesterday's lunch do.

Now, that's a choice ! *winks*

All On Board - Thai Express

A few thoughts from the dinner with friends last night, forever immortalise on a napkin, to transfer on the worldwide web.

Dinner was fun.

Great to meet up with old friends. Sharing common memories and making new ones. Special bonds shared, with so many different people with a myriad of thoughts, experiences and stories to tell and share.

Another sighting..

Yes, another sighting of the man, I call "Tony Stark". Every single time I see him, he's looking more and more like a regular guy. A good disguise, Mr. Stark !

My Dear thinks that all this sightings of Tony Stark are just figments of my imagination.

I wonder the same thing, sometimes.

Especially more so, now, as Mr. Stark is blending so well with the general public.

"Hey Mr. Stark, the Comic Book and Toy Convention is over. Shouldn't you be about else where, creating new toys and fighting evil?"

:-P

Baby Bear Monsie

I love you, you know
Even though you make me scream
And you make me bang my head
And cry

You make me laugh
And you chase my pain away
You make me smile
And think of positive thoughts
You make me want to be with you
You feed me, you stand by me
You make me happy
I love, love you, you know !!

A Hard Day's Work

Alarm goes off at 5.09 am.
I snoozed the alarm.
Alarm goes off at 5.19 am.
I snoozed the alarm.
Alarm goes off at 5.29 am.
I snoozed the alarm.
I woke up proper at 5.33 am.
The day had just begun for me.
And now the day had just ended for me.

Birthday Party for the Boy

So we got invited to a pre-birthday BBQ for the eldest boy. Changi Village was the venue and bring an empty stomach was the instruction. Presents are optional but plenty of play time with the kids are required.

So off we went. First to get the present and then to Changi.

Ah.

But alas the plans we made were not meant to be realised. First we got side tracked by the super late start to the day. Then we got stuck in the office for longer than thought. And finally I had to throw a hissy fit that almost killed the night and my sisters' love. For with just a couple of messages, I'd almost became the least favourite sister.

But almost was the key word.

We went.
We met.
We ate.

And that was good. Lovely time for the kids as well. :-)

I Saw Tony Stark again!

I did. I did see him the other day and I saw him again today! He had shaved his beard off so he was trying to blend in with the general population. Good call, Dude!

So he IS on a mission. shussssh

You didn't hear or read this from me and my blog. Keep this piece of news on the QT. :-)

Food Poisoning

So it came to be that my Dear, Sweetheart, Darling Baby came down with a major case of food poisoning. Don't know what he ate that didn't sit well in his tummy.

I escaped unscathed except for the "Panda eyes" for the lack of sleep. Dear woke up in the wee hours in the morning, sick in his tummy aside from running an obscenely high fever.

Poor Baby..

So, here I am writing for the whole world to read. Dear had gone to the Doc's and had gotten two days medical leave. Hopefully he gets well soon. Poor Sayang!

*Bo Chapness is just a state of the mind

To be quite frank, the Dear had been saying that I had jumped from the frying pan straight into the grill/stove top/fire. And I think I will have to agree. It makes perfect sense since I had been complaining about a number of things not in the order I had come to expect since I started at the new "work place".

I had given the fair amount of chances to certain people here as, well, people being humans are not infallible. Time and again they have come up short. The kind of attitude I see towards their work and the pride they have in fulfilling their duties are, hmmm ... The same as the place I had left.

So I am disheartened. To see the state of *bo chap-ness so inherent here. A handful of colleagues seemed to not have that attitude but the majority always wins, yes ?

And so, I have adopted the majority. Behold, the new *bo chap me. She who will fly high in her cape of T-Shirts and Polo-Ts to office !

*Bo chap means a don't care attitude frequently used as a local slang

I saw Tony Stark today

I did.

I was on my second connecting bus to work today, minding my own business and listening to the songs on my iPod and the next thing when I looked up towards the boarding passengers, Tony Stark !!

He came on at the bus stop before Newton MRT station in his glorious peach polo T. With his moustache neatly trimmed, he didn't fool me. Everyone else thinks he's just an ordinary guy but I know better.

He is Tony Stark !!!

In his normal guy persona, I assumed he is on a mission.

Best of luck, Stark !! Or shall I say Ironman ?

*winks*

Year End, Post Depression

Yeah, another 2 whole months before the year 2011 starts. And what a cracking start it will be. To be quite honest, with all the upheavals happening in my life in the past few months, time did pass by very quickly.

The change of the second residence. The change of employment. The change of my status with him. We are like two peas in a pod. Snuggling cosily and acting in synchrony. Until someone takes us out of the pod and put us in the wrong positions and place. Yikes ! We fight and we argue and we cry and we decide, we want to be back in our cosy corners and we made up. We are friends again.

*hugs* to the one I love and adore and abide and drive crazy.

We live, we love and we die. All in the natural progression of life.

Cheers !

A rainy, wet Sat 'noon

I'm hungry. Waiting for my grilled sausages to materialise, never to happen in the not so distant future..

Gimme my grilled sausages!!

My good man.

Reasons for my daily headaches

1) Addicted to Panadol (need 2 tabs every morning to stave off the throbbing)

2) Insufficient sleep (average about 5 hours every night, except the weekend)

3) Late caffeine drip (a plastic bag every morning to last the whole day)

4) High Blood Pressure (at the rate my work is piling up, no wonder)

5) Work monitor is too close (no space, no space, no space)

6) Glasses need a change (astigmatism ... arghhh ... )

So there you have it. If you think I should add on to my list of reasons, please drop your comments ! :-)

Me, mine and I

What can you say about people that had not been said before ? People are generous and on the flip side, people are selfish. People can be kind and unkind. They can be oh so thoughtful and yet there are more thoughtless beings walk around. In a daze.

I feel kind of privileged to be able to know and meet all sorts of people. The nice ones, the not so helpful ones, the good, the bad and the ugly.

Generous = Cheeky Monkey - for re-contracting his mobile plan so I can get a new phone.

Selfish = Me - for wanting to get a new phone even though my current mobile is still usable.

Kind = Elin for showing her care and concern to her colleague who's being "ill-treated" by the higher-ups

Unkind = The higher-ups who are taking advantage of a foreigner by making unreasonable demands and expecting miracles.

Thoughtful = The coffeeshop uncle who knows my coffee order and had never failed to make me an excellent plastic bag of coffee to keep me awake every morning

Thoughtless = The idiots to whom Cheeky Monkey are sharing his living space with

Just a bit of write up to end the lunch hour. Cheers !

Another work week

Another day in the sun.

Thank you for keeping me alive. Thank you for allowing me to enjoy another day in the sun. Thank you for the smile on his face this morning. Thank you for the wonderful lunch and excellent coffee. Thank you for the wonderful times amidst the not-so nice people.

Thank you for giving me another day.

Cheers ! :-D

Saturday 'Noon

Work is work is work.

Such is the name of the game.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday.

Weary, tired, exhausted; physically, mentally and emotionally.

So we screamed, "Stop, stop. Enough. We just want our work done. Leave us be. Do your tasks. Don't lord over us. We are not your minions nor are you our Master. Get out of our faces. We don't want you near. We sure as hell don't need you."

But our cries went unheeded. Silent in the face of the overwhelming power struggle in them. They don't care about us. They don't care about anything. The resulting force of their greed and envy blinds them to the willpower of us.

So we say,
"In brightest day, in blackest night,
No evil shall escape my sight
Let those who worship evil's might,
Beware my power... Green Lantern's light!"

September

The September that was, will be cherished. The September that is, gone too soon.

A really lazy Sunday

Dear came back last night after being away for a days. It was a nice coming home. Dear was received by my younger sis and family. We had food at Popeye's and Dear came back with a red eye.

We reached home just past midnight after taking a ride with the worst cab driver this side of the island. That was kinda bummer but Dear was a tad tired to muster up so much frustration and anger at the little *beep*.

He brought back a number of presents for me and the family. I even got a stuffed humpy camel ! Nice. It made me feel worst for being such a witch to Dear for the past few days. Anyways, I am feeling kinda mellow and excited at the same time. Typing away on Dear's work lappy while the match is on. Man U's leading at the time I am typing this. Hopefully they remain so by the time i finished and published this post.

Excited because tomorrow we will be watching the National Day Parade live at the Padang. It is Dear's first ever live NDP and to add on the excitement, Ayu had gotten 6 tickets to the NDP ! Lucky, lucky us ! So we will meet up with my elder sis and family at City Hall tomorrow afternoon. Hopefully the weather stays as healthy aka warm and sunny as today was !

Right before I end the post, Man U had won the Charity Shield cup against Chelsea. Yay ! Glory, glory Man United ! :-)

Fight, fight, fight

Irresponsible. Unthinkable. Selfish. Unrepentable. Stubborn.

Me, me, me.

Those things and more are me. I irritate myself. Go figure.

I miss him

Give me a reason not to. I am moody and out of whack. I am irritable and irritating, all in one package. Give me, him. Give me my man back. I miss him ! I truly, truly do !

I asked for it

I am swamped ! I kept saying and thinking I can handle it but I can't ! I need help but I don't know how and where to start. I feel so useless and helpless.

So here I am at work, trying my best to complete the endless paperwork and updating of records. I'm kinda hungry and I am definitely missing my guy. He will only be back Saturday night and until then, it seems like my life had come to a stand still.

It seems like my life is revolving around my guy all the time. We do almost everything together. So it's kinda sad that when he has to go off on some work thing overseas for a few days I am just like a lost child.

To work. Stress for 10 hours. Back home. Have dinner and sleep. Sad and pitiful.

*sighs*

Birthday Boy

Or rather Man.

Happy Birthday, dear Boyfriend.

I hope you had a good time out and about on your day off. Doing the things that makes you happy. Thank you for sending me to work today and I really count the hours until we meet later.

I wish you all the happiness and joy in the world. I love you!

Happy, happy Birthday, Dear !

:-D

For whom the bell tolls

For me as my time's up in my work place. A jump made to run to another offer. An offer received after much thought and deliberation. I hope the decision made was a good and fruitful one. I hope to be at the level best working with outstanding characters.

I'm gonna miss my old work place. I've definitely missed the warm camaraderie among the old gang. Everyone's flown to other nesting places and now's my turn.

I wish me all the very best !

Presents

I received 2 new presents today. Dear bought me the new keyboard I was eyeing at Harvey Norman a few weeks ago. I love my new keyboard ! It's got a silicon cover to protect the keys and also to prevent dirt from entering the crevices. I love it ! I told Dear, I am bringing it everywhere. Home, office and home ! Right now, I am giving it a good trial. Hence, I am typing away happily on my new keyboard. It's so nice to touch. I love it. I love my Dear !

Another present is my headphones ! My old/current ones were disintegrating beyond hope. I was on the lookout for a cheap yet stylish and oh so powerful headphones. I know, my current one was a Aurvana DJ Headphones, oh so powerful and crystal clear sound but sad to say, it's dead. Dead as in unusable anymore. All because of the over usage !

So anyways, back to my present. We went to NUS IT Co-Op after lunch and I think I went a wee bit nuts over the earphones/headphones section. Dear was suggesting the brand which was the same as the keyboard bought. Then I turned around and spotted the Philips Headphones. Sold !

Hehehehehe ...

Fits nice and sound good. Bliss !

:-)

Thank you, Darling ! I love them and I love you !

Birthday !

Happy Birthday, Ma !

Love you mucho, mucho !!

Wishes and haf' pennies

Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday dear Silentscream,
Happy birthday to me!

I am wishing for clear skies and happy smiles.
I am wishing for good food and wonderful memories.
I am wishing for health and wealth.
I am wishing for all people who deserves the birthday wishes from this 29-year-old. My folks, my Sisters and their families, my Dear and my closest friends and confidant.

Hope you guys had a good sunny day earlier !

*grins*

Age is just a number

I am feeling kinda melancholic. Sitting in front of the computer trying to think of something intelligent to say is kinda frustrating. When the inspiration strikes me, words flow out from my mind onto the big, white screen fluently. When the inspired is struck, it's better to set yourself down and document your thoughts.

For today, I am not at work. I am resting at home. A home where Dear resides and find his peace and contentment. Unless, I decide to pop by and shatter his quiet thoughts. Sitting here, thinking to myself, I think I have been taking a lot of people and things for granted. Things like, having Dear around all the time. People like, taking my family and their unwavering support in my craziness.

Thoughts like, I'm gonna be okay. We are gonna be okay. Eventually we will build our home and hearth together and our love will conquer all. I wish that acceptance will come, be it from my family and his. We are serious about each other, honestly. We are so together and serious that we are entertaining ideas which will not be possible once a upon a time ago.

I'm sitting here and thinking how grateful for the times we shared. The memories we made and the plans we contemplated. To dream is to be at a restful stage and I honestly think we rest well together.

This month, being my birthday month, I wish for the strength to keep our faith in each other. I pray for the peace which will come to our household.

Thank you, Dear. For your support. For always being the bestest friend I ever had. For being you.

I *heart* you. Honestly, I do.

A time for me

I feel so worn out. Tired, physically and mentally. Every night after dinner, I just want to shower and sleep. Escape to the dreamland where my dreams and nightmares are mine alone. Literally for my eyes only.

I love April. I think it's a lovely month. The April showers and thunderstorms always make me feel at ease. The idea of being out in the storm, getting drenched and soaked through my clothes is such a liberating thought. I love April !

I'm sorta like in a rut now. Going through the motions in most aspects of my life. Except when I'm with my Dear. He drives me mad and yet he makes me sane. I love him to bits ! I wonder what would happen to me if we had not met ?

I wish my youngest niece the best. Poor darling girl is still being cared for in the hospital. I know I had not written about her situation prior. Sis, I think you may think I am selfish. Well, I'd been busy and had not enough time to update my blog page. My apologies. So to clear the air, let me post some update.

I was an aunt for the 6th time last year. Last day of the year. My younger sis gave birth to a baby girl and the poor kid had a lot of complications. Surgery after surgery and now she's almost 4 months old but she's still in the hospital after she had one last operation a week ago. I pray for strength for both mother and baby. Love you guys !

So.

I'll try to update as much as I can. For the love in the world, please be nice to the little ones. :-)

Time is for us to waste

Well, given the state of my mental health these days, I really love to waste the time I've been given. But wastage is just ... *gasps* AWFUL !! I am sorry but given the circumstances I'm in, I don't think I was wasting time when I didn't have the time to correct and collate other people's policy and procedures.

Still, I need to do them and did them I did. Such a good worker bee, eh ? I hope not for too long. I am desperate for the winds of change. Give me another management style and I will probably not in want of the change. Until then, give me the strength to waste more time!

Disclaimer: Writer is currently feeling mellow and a tad bit stoned. Sorry for the incoherence.

Computer problems ?

Get it fixed by simply checking if it's the power supply that's acting up. I did that and ... VOILA ! I am now typing away happily usng my desktop. Hehehe ...

Went to watch Valentine's Day with the Dear earlier. It was a nice film. Quite interesting but not in the same league as Love Actually. Now that film is uncomparable.

After the movie, we popped by Funan and Dear got a new work computer. I am sooooooo jealous ! Though I have been eyeing the Mac Book.. Oooh ... Mac Book ... *drools*

Okay. Just testing out my new power supply of my desktop. Seems okay. Gotta go soon. Gonna have to crash already. Exhausted !

When I'm feeling fretful

And when I'm feeling down,
When I'm feeling mad
And when I'm feeling blue,
When I'm feeling psyched
And when I'm feeling happy,

I want him to tell me we are all right.
I want him to say we are going to be okay.
I want him to not always assume the worst of me.

I have my faults,
I've had my mad moments,
I will always have him.

In my life. My ankh life.

Time for a cool change

When the clock strikes twelve times today, it will be another day. Another day, another week, another year. Things should get better, shouldn't it ?

For Cheeky Monkey, things had certainly looked up. All the anguish and the fear in not being able to move on to another better place had vanished in a single phone call. All right, make that three phone calls. He is saved. At least for now, until the next challenge comes along.

For Younger Sis, I believe the change had also arrived. She has to take better care of herself and her babies. Most importantly she needs to put the babies ahead of her wants. Their needs will also be on top of all her wants. She must be strong. And she shall have to stay strong. Both mentally and emotionally. She must pick up the change in her stride.

For Elder Sis, she is back to where she had to be. As she naturally needs to be. She will need all her street smarts to cope with this change. To be more tolerant and mature. To be able to seek and heed advice.

And me ?

I just got rid of my old mattress for it to be replaced by a proper (super) single bed. That change do take some getting used to. I wish me the best in tolerating the lack of space. And the dropping of many pillows and bolsters in the middle of the night. And the biggest ever change ? To cope with the non falling of the high bed !