Have I ever mentioned before that April is my favourite month ? It's the month, many, many years ago that my parents were expecting me to make an appearance.
But now ? April sucks. April is when I get left behind. For at least a week or two, I'd get left behind. It's now two years in a row. Last year, for half a month I was abandoned. This year, it's a week. It hurts more this year because we are a year old now.
I don't like this feeling of abandonment. What's the point of a birthday month when you get left behind by someone dearest to you ?
April sucks. Go away and don't greet me for another year. When I will be left behind again.
:(
Mood: Sad
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Friday, April 10, 2009
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Discharged
So after 8 days in the hospital, Mother is being released today. Initially the doctor wanted to let her out on Tuesday but Mother was adamant that she gets more bed rest. Hence, rest she did.
Dear had been the champion these whole time Mother was in. He's been with me visiting the whole time she was hospitalised. Thank you, Love. You know you didn't have to do it and yet you did stay by my side. Dislike as you did with the one who shall not be named, you still supported me. Thank you.
Having brought Mother home safely, I needed to pop by Home Nursing Foundation to arrange a nurse to come once every two days to change my Ma's wound dressing. Everything is settled, hopefully.
The nurse will come by tomorrow and I will have to learn to clean and change the dressing as I believe my Elder Sis will be squeamish.
Ah wells. Part time nurse, here I become !
Dear had been the champion these whole time Mother was in. He's been with me visiting the whole time she was hospitalised. Thank you, Love. You know you didn't have to do it and yet you did stay by my side. Dislike as you did with the one who shall not be named, you still supported me. Thank you.
Having brought Mother home safely, I needed to pop by Home Nursing Foundation to arrange a nurse to come once every two days to change my Ma's wound dressing. Everything is settled, hopefully.
The nurse will come by tomorrow and I will have to learn to clean and change the dressing as I believe my Elder Sis will be squeamish.
Ah wells. Part time nurse, here I become !
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
April Fool
And the fool's me.
Foolish and stupid. He's going to leave me this month. For at least a week. :(
Mom's okay but I'm a fool because obviously she's a poor thing. Her being scammed is a poor thing. Then I'm a fool for being scammed by her, no ?
Fool, yeah that's me.
Foolish and stupid. He's going to leave me this month. For at least a week. :(
Mom's okay but I'm a fool because obviously she's a poor thing. Her being scammed is a poor thing. Then I'm a fool for being scammed by her, no ?
Fool, yeah that's me.
Monday, March 30, 2009
And he said, "More work!"
Idiot, of course, more work for you.
Because you are an effing imbecile. If you had monitored and followed up on the kids who have yet to pay, you would have gotten the list done.
If you are not such a lazy arsed bum, you will collect the payments personally and realised that your 15% of uncollected exam fees were dued to other people's collection.
Lazy arsed bugger !!!
Go and freaking complain to your goonhead's face instead of muttering under your breath. Arseeffingholedeffer ...
Eat shit and die, arseholes !
Because you are an effing imbecile. If you had monitored and followed up on the kids who have yet to pay, you would have gotten the list done.
If you are not such a lazy arsed bum, you will collect the payments personally and realised that your 15% of uncollected exam fees were dued to other people's collection.
Lazy arsed bugger !!!
Go and freaking complain to your goonhead's face instead of muttering under your breath. Arseeffingholedeffer ...
Eat shit and die, arseholes !
Friday, March 27, 2009
If things were not so different
It's been coming gradually. The feeling of unease did not dissipate over time. You know the bad feeling you have at the base of your stomach everytime you think something's not right is going to happen. A few things then happened and you think that that's the bad thing and that bad feeling will go away.
But it didn't.
And so the story goes, how my Ma had to be hospitalised again. The same old issue, the same old disease. The same old remedy ?
It's been said time and again that as we age, we become more set in our ways. More than ever, we choose not to listen to what's good and beneficial for us. I admit, I do fall into that category. As they say, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. The same streak of obstinance runs in me and my sisters. And the bull-headedness did not just start from my folks. It goes way back to their parents and parents' parents time.
And so.
Although wont as I want to write about my complete year with the Dear one, I must remember that all joy comes with the tears ...
But it didn't.
And so the story goes, how my Ma had to be hospitalised again. The same old issue, the same old disease. The same old remedy ?
It's been said time and again that as we age, we become more set in our ways. More than ever, we choose not to listen to what's good and beneficial for us. I admit, I do fall into that category. As they say, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. The same streak of obstinance runs in me and my sisters. And the bull-headedness did not just start from my folks. It goes way back to their parents and parents' parents time.
And so.
Although wont as I want to write about my complete year with the Dear one, I must remember that all joy comes with the tears ...
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
:'(
Bad things happen and bad things happen in threes. I feel like shit every time I think of my act of human kindness (as mentioned by the Dear one). So, another change. Another lifestyle re-consideration for the folks not in the know.
I still feel depressed everytime I am reminded of the stupid texts and calls and emails.
Sorry Dear for being a grumpy pot on some days. I love you, dear heart. Thank you for being there and providing that listening ear and shoulder to cry on. Also for making me laugh and forgetting the unfortunate act even for that short moment in time.
*hugs*
I still feel depressed everytime I am reminded of the stupid texts and calls and emails.
Sorry Dear for being a grumpy pot on some days. I love you, dear heart. Thank you for being there and providing that listening ear and shoulder to cry on. Also for making me laugh and forgetting the unfortunate act even for that short moment in time.
*hugs*
Monday, February 02, 2009
Bad Blood
"Wealth is like a game of cards. The card that you have dealt represents determinism; the way you play it is free will."
So the key word is to chance it. Believing in things will be better is well and fine if you live an immortal life. However, since our lives are fixed at "X" number of years, you would be better off to get things done, at a faster rate. Taking things slow and easy is for cowards.
Well, everyone.
I am a coward.
Live with it.
*stickstongueout*
So the key word is to chance it. Believing in things will be better is well and fine if you live an immortal life. However, since our lives are fixed at "X" number of years, you would be better off to get things done, at a faster rate. Taking things slow and easy is for cowards.
Well, everyone.
I am a coward.
Live with it.
*stickstongueout*