Plans

Made so many plans for the weekend. However, when the time comes, I'm jus too lazy to follow through. So right about now, I was just planning to stay in and finish my books. Sleep. Have something bit to eat and continue my marathon reading session. Sounds like a bliss, no ?

Especially when the person you most want to spend the weekend with is away. =(

No matter, I will still enjoy each day as it comes. Why ? Because I know he will too !

Hey, Cheeky Monkey. Have a most fun trip and don't forget what I always ask you to do ! =D

No worries

He called. Cheeky Monkey just called. I was waiting to hear from him the whole day. I texted him this morning because I got a bit worried. Haha ... A bit ? I think I was a whole lot worried !

So anyways. He called and he's safe and I'm glad.

Now, if only I could stop missing him.

Physically tired but mentally weird

I tried to sleep but I kept waking up and thinking bad thoughts. Bad thoughts of something happening to Cheeky Monkey. I know, unreasonable. I didn't hear from him at all and I got a bit worried. Ah. Please let this be an unfounded worry.

The thoughts that something horrible might befell him caused me to take off early from work today. I left early wih a couple of errands to run. I guess, I was tired of putting a fake face at work when all I could do was to fret. I didn't even have any appetite for lunch, even when I had an early breakfast of cereal and milk. I finally ate at 2 because I remember the errands I have to do so I would not faint of hunger later. I was a right non-happy camper today. After my earlier post today, I felt like such a stoopid old cow. Haha. So after my errands, work errands, I walked.

I walked and walked and walked from the heart of the city, all the way to the outskirts of town. More specifically, from Maxwell Road to Suntec City. I walked and walked, partly to think and partly to tire myself out so that I would fall into a dreamless sleep later and not have any nightmares. Then I would wake up tomorrow morning and see a text from CM and then, voila !

No worries.

I wish.

So here I am, after tossing and turning and snatching half hour catnaps, checking my mobile for any incoming texts.

Get a grip woman. He's alright. He's okay, just having fun. Relax and don't fret so much. Well, if I tell this to myself long enough, I might actually believe it.

The whole sad story

I thought I could cope. My ex-guy is an understanding person. But at the first sign of disenchantment, I swerved and missed the signs. And I fled from him for the other guy. The guy who tempted me so. And we promised nothing but good and fun times.

 

I saw the signs, way in advance. I told myself I could handle all that will be thrown at me. Little did I realise I'd grown soft. Soft in the head and heart.

 

As a result, there is no way I could have anticipated this. This being ? The day after the night he left.

 

Gosh.

 

It was nice just being with him on the ride over to the airport. Holding hands and just talking. Having a late supper, smelling his scent as I leaned over to whisper something.

 

I so missed him. But then, this is only the first day of the "separation". Bad idea really to get so physical, so fast.

 

I need a distraction.

 

Or I just need to sleep. 8 hours of proper sleep. =)

You don't have to say you love me

Yes, dear. You don't even have to say you lurve me. I can take care of myself. I am a big girl. I am in this with my eyes wide open.

I am having fun. You're making me laugh more these days. I like flirting with you. Trying hard to get a touch or a taste. I like 'em all.

I think being such a resident responsible good girl is bad for me. So now, he knows that I am just a good time girl. Haha ... Cheeky Monkey calls me a Playmate. I play for him, I play with him. That I like very much. :P

Defining moments

Well, I could say we had finally come to a resolution to our mutual attraction to each other.

I just wished we didn't have so many hang ups or overthinking. Let us enjoy this for now, until we are both prepared to get serious. Not with each other, of course. As I've said. Too much hang ups and overthinking !

He sent me home ! All the way to the East and back to his boondocks. For that he deserved a big wet kiss from me ! ;D

Here it comes !

The month of April !!!

My birthday month. I love it !

I love it ! I love it ! I love it ! I love it ! I love it ! I love it ! I love it ! I love it ! I love it ! I love it !