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Saturday, March 19, 2011

Crutch

Sometimes I feel so omnipotent that what I asked and wished had come true. I feel like I have all the powers in the world to change the course and outcome of things. An immense rush of power trip. The ego boosting and heart pumping stuff.

Then the wishes are failed. Nothing goes the way I expected it to be. I am reminded of how insignificant my hopes and wishes are. How unimportant I am in the grand scheme of things. How little impact I make in the bigger picture.

At times like this, I am thankful for the network of support I get. From my Dear, especially. He had to go through so much hell from me at times. How he had to battle my insecurities and my temper tantrums. How he managed to be the calm and steady presence in my life. The anchor when I feel myself drifting away from human contact.

I love him. I absolutely do.

You asked and here I am saying, I do.

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