Journaling 2025

 I was reading this book, The Art of Taking It Easy by Brian King and in one of his chapters, he wrote about journaling and how that can increase your gratitude and in turn help you feel better and reduce your stress. I have been journaling for a good part of my life and I must admit I do enjoy the writing (or in this case, typing) down my thoughts and feelings. Having done the pen and paper method, I do quite enjoy reading back on what happened on that day so many years back. I do admit, some entries felt forced as I had felt that I must write something on that day. I must not miss a day!

I used to write regularly here as well and hey. Last entry was in 2021. And we are coming up to the end of 2025! So much things have happened and maybe, just maybe I will write about something that happened earlier. Be it while remembering the day or maybe just to journal.

In any case, I am rediscovering my love for reading and I have expanded my reading materials too. I am now reading a lot more of SingLit, Singapore Literature. I have been telling people it's more to reminisce of the  times from when I was growing up. To be more in touch with the thoughts and ideas portrayed in the stories written when I was much younger. Funny, how I always feel I am older than my chronological age. And now with the physical ailments catching up on my mental age, I am definitely my age. Albeit, a tad bit older physically.

I hope to continue this journaling business and I hope with the blog just a link away on my gmail account, I will find the time to sit down, collect my thoughts and type away. For now, thank you. For giving me the attention. :)

It was while I was updating the OS...

Tick tock

Tick tock

Ticking off

Tocking about

Tick Tock

Tick   Tock

Tocking off

Ticking about!  

Being “too” clever..

Just a thought when I was writing my other journal that today is:

The first day

Of the last month

In the twentieth year

Of the 2K.

Clever, yes?

When all is said and done

I think I may have used this same blog title some years back. What the mind does then and now seems to be similar. You go through cycles of up and down and left and right and you would like to think that what you thought then is justified and entitled. Do you? Do you feel that you are justified or entitled and want to push this sense of righteousness around? Lord it over people and say that I am entitled to have this feelings, to say what I can and behave as I do. Do you?

I like to think that I am not like this, that I am more sane than insane, more wise than foolish, more humble than proud. But I am not. I think I am not a good human being if I don't have those flashes of irrationality. My only wish is that I am more than that flashes of "the opposite of rational". I feel sad that I sometimes are more careful with my words for the people I dislike than with the people I love. I have that ego thing to tamp down. To make sure I don't lose face and to assert my right to be, well, right.

I need to believe that my compassion does not mean weakness and that I will be heard whether I speak in a normal tone or in my loud voice. I need to show passivity is a strength. Never a weakness.

Random Mumblings

Positive words reinforces positive feelings.

What is the colour of your thoughts?

Hey

Wow! I forgot that this is still out there. There for reminiscing the times I had to share. I have neglected this so badly. I used to blog all the time. I now write them down in a book. A book I've now kept close to my heart. A book that detailed the last 8 months. Yes, I've started it only recently and I feel like a whole new life had happened.

I got the official papers signed. I've also lost someone close to my heart. A couple of cats said Adios to our family and life is never gonna be the same anymore. So many things have changed and you would like to say that changes are good but if they are why do they cause so much upheavals and uncertainty. Surely that means changes are not always a welcome sight.

I hope I'd visit this sometime. Not wait another 2 years for another update.

Old new things

I am better, in case you are wondering. I am slightly out of that bad space and inching my way out even further. Thank you for thinking the good thoughts for me.

As I sit here, waiting for time to pass, I had a thought. Like my obsession with being "lost". Lose my thoughts in the insignificant. Lose my moment for that 3 seconds in my favourite part of the song. Lose my inhibitions and get things done. It's ongoing and the hangups are so insurmountable. I need to be free of this.

I cannot even write coherently. I guess, that's when I close this post.