Random Mumblings

Positive words reinforces positive feelings.

What is the colour of your thoughts?

Hey

Wow! I forgot that this is still out there. There for reminiscing the times I had to share. I have neglected this so badly. I used to blog all the time. I now write them down in a book. A book I've now kept close to my heart. A book that detailed the last 8 months. Yes, I've started it only recently and I feel like a whole new life had happened.

I got the official papers signed. I've also lost someone close to my heart. A couple of cats said Adios to our family and life is never gonna be the same anymore. So many things have changed and you would like to say that changes are good but if they are why do they cause so much upheavals and uncertainty. Surely that means changes are not always a welcome sight.

I hope I'd visit this sometime. Not wait another 2 years for another update.

Old new things

I am better, in case you are wondering. I am slightly out of that bad space and inching my way out even further. Thank you for thinking the good thoughts for me.

As I sit here, waiting for time to pass, I had a thought. Like my obsession with being "lost". Lose my thoughts in the insignificant. Lose my moment for that 3 seconds in my favourite part of the song. Lose my inhibitions and get things done. It's ongoing and the hangups are so insurmountable. I need to be free of this.

I cannot even write coherently. I guess, that's when I close this post.

What the flamingo

You know, I always try to exude positive vibe when I post on this page. I just feel that when I look back on this day (or other days) in the future, I will be able to feel and understand what I had felt that led me to write the way I did.

I am sad today. Sad for the most part of this week, in fact. It's the last week of school where I work and it should be fun and nice and relaxing with 3 weeks of holidays, the whole place empty of its occupants. And yet I feel sad. I am sad for a number of reasons. I am sad.

I will try to not be so sad but I am sad.

Sharing is caring

Just reading through some tips and came across this. Sharing with anyone and everyone who may feel that they are having a hard time getting through the work day. Good luck!

Heal The Pain

"How can I help you?
Please let me try to
I can heal the pain
That you're feeling inside"

Lyrics: George Michael

The genius of the man. Listening to his beautiful voice and meaningful lyrics on my iPod. Rest in peace.

Feeling Blue

You can say it's one of those days. You can say it's that time of the month. You can probably say it's just the beginning of the year. How you say it still does not change the fact that I am feeling down, low, moody, depressed. How you say it also does not change the fact that I am in a place where I don't like what I do, how I feel and why I just want to hide in a corner.

Leave me alone and leave me be. I hate myself right now.