Age is just a number

I am feeling kinda melancholic. Sitting in front of the computer trying to think of something intelligent to say is kinda frustrating. When the inspiration strikes me, words flow out from my mind onto the big, white screen fluently. When the inspired is struck, it's better to set yourself down and document your thoughts.

For today, I am not at work. I am resting at home. A home where Dear resides and find his peace and contentment. Unless, I decide to pop by and shatter his quiet thoughts. Sitting here, thinking to myself, I think I have been taking a lot of people and things for granted. Things like, having Dear around all the time. People like, taking my family and their unwavering support in my craziness.

Thoughts like, I'm gonna be okay. We are gonna be okay. Eventually we will build our home and hearth together and our love will conquer all. I wish that acceptance will come, be it from my family and his. We are serious about each other, honestly. We are so together and serious that we are entertaining ideas which will not be possible once a upon a time ago.

I'm sitting here and thinking how grateful for the times we shared. The memories we made and the plans we contemplated. To dream is to be at a restful stage and I honestly think we rest well together.

This month, being my birthday month, I wish for the strength to keep our faith in each other. I pray for the peace which will come to our household.

Thank you, Dear. For your support. For always being the bestest friend I ever had. For being you.

I *heart* you. Honestly, I do.

A time for me

I feel so worn out. Tired, physically and mentally. Every night after dinner, I just want to shower and sleep. Escape to the dreamland where my dreams and nightmares are mine alone. Literally for my eyes only.

I love April. I think it's a lovely month. The April showers and thunderstorms always make me feel at ease. The idea of being out in the storm, getting drenched and soaked through my clothes is such a liberating thought. I love April !

I'm sorta like in a rut now. Going through the motions in most aspects of my life. Except when I'm with my Dear. He drives me mad and yet he makes me sane. I love him to bits ! I wonder what would happen to me if we had not met ?

I wish my youngest niece the best. Poor darling girl is still being cared for in the hospital. I know I had not written about her situation prior. Sis, I think you may think I am selfish. Well, I'd been busy and had not enough time to update my blog page. My apologies. So to clear the air, let me post some update.

I was an aunt for the 6th time last year. Last day of the year. My younger sis gave birth to a baby girl and the poor kid had a lot of complications. Surgery after surgery and now she's almost 4 months old but she's still in the hospital after she had one last operation a week ago. I pray for strength for both mother and baby. Love you guys !

So.

I'll try to update as much as I can. For the love in the world, please be nice to the little ones. :-)

Time is for us to waste

Well, given the state of my mental health these days, I really love to waste the time I've been given. But wastage is just ... *gasps* AWFUL !! I am sorry but given the circumstances I'm in, I don't think I was wasting time when I didn't have the time to correct and collate other people's policy and procedures.

Still, I need to do them and did them I did. Such a good worker bee, eh ? I hope not for too long. I am desperate for the winds of change. Give me another management style and I will probably not in want of the change. Until then, give me the strength to waste more time!

Disclaimer: Writer is currently feeling mellow and a tad bit stoned. Sorry for the incoherence.

Computer problems ?

Get it fixed by simply checking if it's the power supply that's acting up. I did that and ... VOILA ! I am now typing away happily usng my desktop. Hehehe ...

Went to watch Valentine's Day with the Dear earlier. It was a nice film. Quite interesting but not in the same league as Love Actually. Now that film is uncomparable.

After the movie, we popped by Funan and Dear got a new work computer. I am sooooooo jealous ! Though I have been eyeing the Mac Book.. Oooh ... Mac Book ... *drools*

Okay. Just testing out my new power supply of my desktop. Seems okay. Gotta go soon. Gonna have to crash already. Exhausted !

When I'm feeling fretful

And when I'm feeling down,
When I'm feeling mad
And when I'm feeling blue,
When I'm feeling psyched
And when I'm feeling happy,

I want him to tell me we are all right.
I want him to say we are going to be okay.
I want him to not always assume the worst of me.

I have my faults,
I've had my mad moments,
I will always have him.

In my life. My ankh life.

Time for a cool change

When the clock strikes twelve times today, it will be another day. Another day, another week, another year. Things should get better, shouldn't it ?

For Cheeky Monkey, things had certainly looked up. All the anguish and the fear in not being able to move on to another better place had vanished in a single phone call. All right, make that three phone calls. He is saved. At least for now, until the next challenge comes along.

For Younger Sis, I believe the change had also arrived. She has to take better care of herself and her babies. Most importantly she needs to put the babies ahead of her wants. Their needs will also be on top of all her wants. She must be strong. And she shall have to stay strong. Both mentally and emotionally. She must pick up the change in her stride.

For Elder Sis, she is back to where she had to be. As she naturally needs to be. She will need all her street smarts to cope with this change. To be more tolerant and mature. To be able to seek and heed advice.

And me ?

I just got rid of my old mattress for it to be replaced by a proper (super) single bed. That change do take some getting used to. I wish me the best in tolerating the lack of space. And the dropping of many pillows and bolsters in the middle of the night. And the biggest ever change ? To cope with the non falling of the high bed !

Time for a change?

It's been a long while since my last post. How have my life changed for the better is best left unanswered.