Make me another one to go

The great lengths people go to to get work done.

Guess where I was a couple of hours ago ? Work. I was not supposed to be in this Sat but guess what was waiting for me when I came back to work on Thursday ? More work. And there I was trying to get back to datelines and meetings and what do I need to do yesterday ? Mass mailing out ! The work with the mostest ! Having no mailing room, it's all like a one (wo)man's duties ! Thank God for nice work colleagues !

Anyways, I am off to bed. Yeap ... Lack of caffeine causes me to be the mostest grumpy and sleepy person. Toodles !

Ah ... My word

Don't you just wish sometimes it's better to not face tomorrow ? At times I can be quite the pessimist and during those times I wish I was living the life of leisure. Leisure in not having to think who'd be bringing home the paycheck. Whether the amount will be sufficient, and if you can hang on until the next month when it all starts again. Don't we all wish that we were born with that proverbial silver spoon ?

Moments like that usually "attack" me when I'm doing the most mundane things. Like checking my email. My work email. Oh, it's my fault. I could have waited until tomorrow and plunge myself deep in the rigeurs of what we call looking after your rice bowl.

If you had not noticed, I was on leave to ensure I pass and complete my part time course which is beginning to be a drag. My social life is shot dead. My efforts half past. I am just exhausted ! I wish, I don't have to compete paper trail with anyone. Alas ! In a perfect world we don't and this sure ain't a perfect world.

I guess I am not just tired in studies, I am tired of work. Of particularly working in the same place for a sixth of my entirety. Don't you you just wish you can just give it all up ? Give up the creature comforts, the advancement of technology and just herd ? Travel from place to place trying to find people or creatures who may or may not be the same as you. Delightful thoughts I must say.

I have to go out and see the world. I must if I need to keep thoughts of "better be dead than alive" from springing everytime I ran out of my happy pills.

I will pass ...

And I will pass well, dammit !

Yeah, I am going bonkers with exams again. A disappointment to not have gotten a good pass for my assignments. But I will try not to let them get me down. I have to pass ! I must ! To move on to another phase in my life. And my life has been a bit of downer at times but I will dust off the debris and not crumble like the weakened walls I can be.

Bless !

Ramadhan

The holiest month in the Muslim calendar. When you do good, multiplication of the deed is by leaps and bounds. When Muslims all over the world trip all over themselves to salvage as much good deeds as possible. When the pain and suffering of the less fortunate is felt equally by our Muslim brothers and sisters.

Rejoice, for one of the five pillars of Islam (fasting) is only for Allah. And He is the one who will pay you as you place your faith in His greatness.

Amin.

Money not enough

I am so broke even though I have just received my pay a few days ago. So many bills to settle, so many expenses to think of. The fact that I am most oft budgetless also adds on to the fact that my savings are slowly dwindling. And the house. Oh my, payment for the house, can absolutely kill ! Thank goodness, I don't see the money bleeding out much !

Onward and go forth !

Replacement kitty

Well.

What can I say ? My household would not be complete with just four cats around. A new addition to the family has arrived. And no, I'm not talking about my sis' new kid. Ayu had found a kitten she found likeable enough to bring home to my place. A cutie to boot !

He looked like Bujang, with super soft fur and cute tiny teeth. Blue irises, with longish tail. Ayu decided to name him Cat Ayu, since she was the one who found him. Mother called him Kiko and Dad's calling him Laklak. Me ? I decided to call him Kayu !

Lovely little munchkin, he sure is !

Happy Birthday!

Hey Fie.

I wish I could be there to see you smile.
When I wish you a great, fun-filled birthday.
I hoped you will remember me.
As you turn 2 dozen more years!

Your friend,
Hel